my dearest Chryseis..... she has taken my heart into her own. I know she shall always keep it safe and warm. Hope... It is what she has trusted me with. I shall hold and cherish it all my days, striving to bring her hope of a bright and loving future into this world. I love her more than life itself. She brings out in me the best, yet does not run from the worst.



There is another matter I feel the need to write about. I often wonder at the human heart... How can it be so gentle, so loving and fragile, yet be so resiliant and strong? I have seen hearts shatter, torn apart by those whose heart is dark and clouded, and yet agian mended anew by the gentle touch of a kind soul. A simple word or sentence can cause a heart to hurt, yet a thousand hurtful words cannot shatter a heart that has the support of one dear to it. As I sit writing, a dear friend has a heart that has been shattered by one who he cares for, and who never intended such a hurt to come. I know that in time it shall mend and be stronger...to grow from the pain, yet how does one aid when all you can do is stand by helplessly, speaking mere words you know will not help...yet what else to do.

The Human heart.......It alone is what keeps us from tearing our world apart with hate and anguish...

I continue to train, now in the desert. I am still intent upon never steping foot into the farm I have heard so much bad about. My love for dear Chryseis more and more each day...if that is even possible. So much I wish to say...a question to ask.... I do love her dearly.

I have recieved good news today. My younger brother will soon be returning from Fartown. I do hope he brings word of our dear sister. I miss them both dearly. I haven't seen young Augustus in three years. I imagine he has grown so much. It will be good to share an ale with him and hear of his stories. I can't wait for him to meet the love of my life. I hope they like each other as they may one day be related...

well, so much for jumping the entire foulish area, but I did make it half way to 13 with the jump. perhaps I shall just fight these sea people instead. they seem far more worthy a foe than brids.

I have found that while there are many wonderful people that walk this land there are also a few very cruel, and it does make a person wonder how much longer the good people shall allow the cruelty to go on before making a strong stand agianst it.

My dear Chryseis... what words can discribe how I feel about you? very few words exist to express the joy I get from seeing thee simply smile. I treasure each second that I can share with you, and hope to share the rest of my days enjoying thy company.

Well, I guess that is enough ramblings for one day, and I have plans to make

I have heard terror stories of great undead birds inhabiting a farm. I have deciede to train hard now to avoid such foul beasts.

I have been spending so much of my time these days in a special place, with an even more special lady. She completes me in so many ways. I want nothing more than to hold her in my arms each and every day, to share each new dawn and gaze at every lovely sunset with her at my side......

**here several words are written then scribbled through**


I want to ask her....feel I should......would want nothing more.....is it too soon? would she run? would she refuse? the uncertianty gives me almost as many butterflies in my stomach as just being around her. such soft gentle eyes. to make her happy......forever.....could one want anything else?

Life continues to move steadly forward. it has now been several weeks since I left home. I do visit often though, just to show mother and father that I remain in one piece. They worry so much because they still miss my sister dearly, as do I. They say they could not bare to lose me as well, and so I shall strive always to visit them when I pass through Milltown. I have met a few new friends as I travel and grow more skilled in the land. One such friend has quickly become that and much more. I never knew I could care for another as I care for her. we have exchanged gifts and both consider the gift recieved very special to us. I miss her when we are parted and wish we could always walk hand in hand. She shall be my sponsor when my time comes. well, I have rambled enough for now, I shall continue to write as I always have, and for now shall leave these new thoughts unbond from the others I have locked away.