Been a long time since I wrote in this thing. Lot has happened, some good, some bad. Lot of people have a lot to say about me these turns it seems. Twisting events to suit themselves, assuming things, saying I feel something that I don't, or never did feel. Going to other people and telling them versions of things that are different then how they went for some unknown reason. It's annoying, and people wonder why I have pulled away from some of them lately. I've learned just how much my stubbornness has cost my physical health, how much ignoring something didn't make it go away, just made it worse. But I've also found my reason to fight, to fight to get better. The very first person I ever had feelings for...the person who has always been on my side...we finally figured it all out and we've been together for a cycle or so now. I didn't think it could feel like this and I kind of get why people write all this cheesy, gushy stuff in here. I get how it feels to want everyone to know how awesome it can feel. She knows everything, she knows how long a road I have to get back to even close to where I want to be, and she's still here. Asking me to fight with her...like there is anything I wouldn't do. I will get past this, I will get better after years of ignoring it, of letting it win...and it will be in large part to the support she gives me every turn. I can only hope I give her even half of what she gives me.