An ornate and gold-edged book, of which inside are secrets even she doesn't know or understand. But tucked all through it are leaflets of paper, as if she'd rather not write in the book its self. Except on the first empty page of the book is written in exquisite, flowing penmanship her full name. ~ Lavender Cecelia Morgan.
Monday, 23 January 2023
Zarock has been gone so long now, and I've no clue if he's coming back. Another guy is now trying for my attention. And I am so... so very scared. I feel like Zarock succumb to the same curse that has befallen all but one guy, that has gotten close to me. And that one I pushed away so indefinitely it feels like... like a dream that never happened. I don't want another to fall prey to this curse I am under. I can't stand losing another. It hurts so much... like my heart is on fire, yet frozen in my chest at the same time, it hurts so much I feel like I might be sick. My head throbs I can't think. What did I do to deserve to fall under this cruelty? I grieve, I miss his presence in my life... my Zarock.
