I couldnt bear leaving the lands again, having only just returned from Moira's family...but my best friend, the one who understood...who got why I had to leave home...I had a missive from an anonymous source that she had died suddenly...she was to be married off after my leaving and now...I don't know what to think...I feel...back then I was not prepared for such things...but now...now I at least hope I can visit her ashing site and be with her spirit...at most right the wrong...

I miss Moira desperately, but, not knowing what might lie in wait on my return to this home i so despise, I did not want to risk bringing her along...far more dangerous than highwaymen...my leaving was not encouraged...it was secret...I ran from my family and culture and I do not know what if any welcome I will receive or if I will be driven off or possibly attacked and trapped. She does not deserve this worry, but she also does deserve to be where she is most herself without worry for undue harm...I know there are many looking out for her in Valorn...and I hold this hope in my heart that she is still waiting upon my return. My heart aches at this separation, but...it is something I must do.