I was on the beach last night as usual and after applying a cooling salve to my burns and fixing a small evening meal i realized that once again i was left with far too much time too think. With the exception of my teacher i have kept most thoughts close to my heart since coming here. Even Anna and Mother don't know me any more The guilt of Father's death... the horrible moment when I lost all control has left me gutted and silent. perhaps it is time to be less so.... time will tell. The Gods have blessed me with many gentle souls to befriend along the way.... I don't know what i'd do without their love, but speaking of what matters is so hard......