QUOTE OF THE TURN: [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=191246][COLOR=purple]Kairiel Bosburn[/COLOR][/URL]

Quote: "Ah-huh. Wildfire. Different from demonfire, though. Wildfire leaves the maybe for something."

It took me awhile.. a long while. But when I finally understood that I was the medium; Me? Shadow no, why? Why are you putting me through this?

Normally I wouldn't dare question the tasks, normally I wouldn't dare second guess myself. I would just listen. When you tell me to go, I will Go. But I didn't.. I stopped. There was a pause. Why was there a pause? Could I be lost without the whispers? But how? I was doing so well before. Before I could hear your whispers out loud, I survived. Is it because I am the conflict? The conflict wasn't really others.. it twas myself. I was battling against me; My worst enemy.

I.. scared myself.. I felt so in rage, pure fire like none other. I felt I just had to do something. I HAVE TO.. but no. No Loki, if you did something, then you would cause more chaos; But isn't chaos good? Of course it tis. Chaos is balance. But wouldn't chaos be light.. not dark? Some often get it confused. I surely know that I am not. Light is a chaotic element, no one sleeps in bright light, everyone is calmer, and less chaotic in the dark. So no, the darkness wasn't confusing I, it twas me; My Light. Lo..Low.. I have to keep to myself, this is what I thought; that is what I did. And in that moment, all I could do is plot. Chaos tis all... Darkness tis all.. What was I saying? That isn't all. But my eyes defied me, I could not see anymore but that. I could see war.. bloodshed, so much bloodshed, though did it effect me? No. I wanted it. I craved it.. but that's not me. Every now and then I could hear Cody's words. He said to me; "Hey, I've heard a lot of good things about you. Whenever you need someone to talk to, come to me.. I'm proud of you, Loki.." - Did I answer him? No.. why hadn't I answered him? I couldn't. I wanted to but I felt like I couldn't speak, like I no longer had a voice. Suffocation.

I was told to stay out of his business.. I couldn't speak, though I wanted to... Suffocation. Why were you there.... Aryana...? Why didn't you just walk away? She said something to me.. I told her to stay away. I could hurt her, I could cause her pain. Tis only chaos.. tis-.. did she say I was apart of her family..?

He touched my shoulder.. and told me; "Whatever you do.. just don't allow it to change who you are.. I don't like to see you so... down? You're always happy. Don't ever change you." Sir Cody.. I'm sorry.. forgive me for not responding. I am still very apologetic.

Ary.. I'm sorry for acting like such a fool..
My friends worked it out in the end, and all they needed was a reminder.. I lashed out. I lashed.. I was about to face my death with the blade of my own best friend. I was ready for it. I wanted the terrors to stop, I wanted the torture to leave. Though regardless.. I refused to be the one to walk away from it. I rather be the one that bleeds while still facing it.


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Everything's okay now... everything's okay.
I'm okay.. I don't want to be enraged no more. It scares me.
I've discovered a fear of mine. I can be a monster.
I am a Dark Warrior...
I am a protector..

The shadows consumed me.. the shadows vaporize me.. the shadows know what they're doing.