A simple leather bound book kept together with a simple clasp. A gull plume sticking out from midst it's pages. On the first page inside the text reads "Rosaline Emily Gill".
Tuesday, 18 February 2020
In my haste to write this before I slept I was remiss in mentioning that Papa, Lowrenzo performed our ceremony. His words were so sweet and amazingly done, it shall sound in my heart forever to have had his blessing on our union.
Rosaline posted @ 00:33 - Link
This turn, Daven Blackmourn and I were bonded. During Winters Warming, in our guild chapel. I wore my snowy white robes of Miranda, an ice cloak both shimmered in the light. As we as the new boots I crafted just the turn before and a spider lace scarf as a veil. Daven was dressed in a black suit, black dress cape, with his champions pin glimmering on his shoulder, and a black tricorn hat, he looked so handsome I could hardly take my eyes from him once I found him after I entered the chapel. I am quite certain I didn't notice who else was there until after we said our vows.. during which I think we both got teary eyed. We were heaped with congratulations and presents! The best of which was and amazing cake that was delivered for us all, by a very sweet watchful friend. Then later we were surprised yet again when... Cody kicked us out of my cabin for a few marcs, and when he allowed us back in it was trasformed into the prefect home for the two of us to start our life together in. It was, the most perfect day. I've been so blessed to start life anew.
Rosaline posted @ 00:29 - Link
Tuesday, 11 February 2020
Daven took me on a picnic, didn't tell me where we were going but he took me to the garden of the gods, there he laid out a sumptuous feast, more then the two of us could eat by far. It was lovely, he cut the food, made my plate for me. Then when we were done, he stood, pulled me into his arms and then got down on one knee.. his words I will never forget. "I ask you to take a journey with me
To share our lives, build our family tree. To live together in harmony. I pray you say yes... as I get down on one knee. My love, my life, my Angel in disguise, I'm very proud of how far we've come on our journey together. And I'm asking if you'd be willing to take the next step with me." It was so romantic and he offered me a stunning diamond ring, I never cared for jewels, but it was beautiful, more so since it was picked with his love. The gods have blessed my life again putting him in my path when I needed him most, I am the luckiest woman to have such a man who is solicitous of what I need and makes me feel loved and cherished. Oh.. and I said yes!
Rosaline posted @ 16:51 - Link
Friday, 07 February 2020
Lost in darkness, struggling to see, until the day I set MYSELF free.
Free from darkness I may have been, but now lost and struggling to live again.
The help offered I couldn't understand, at the end of my rope I did stand.
Struggling to stay out of the darkness again, almost succumbed so weak was I then.
Until your hand you offered to me, and from the darkness set me free.
You brought light into my life, lifted me from the strife.
If I have forever to gratefully say, thank you to you each and every day.
Forever is not long enough, but it wouldn't be so tough.
-Written for Daven Blackmourn.
Rosaline posted @ 22:21 - Link
Daven insisted on teaching me to dance this turn, I was a little hesitant thanks to past events, but he wouldn't let that stop me, I mean I've danced before... but never been good at it, and suffering a some sickness that took my mind away not long after the last dance I remember doesn't make one really want to repeat it. But I am glad he talked me into making new memories to hold, and while I was worried I have to admit his toes suffered very little damage, I was quite proud of myself. It was so much fun, just the two of us. He is quite the dancer too. It was nice to spend time with him just us. I don't know where my life would be without him, he's come to mean so much to me, my rock, my shelter, my confidant, my love. It's amazing I thought I would never find love again, but I did.
Rosaline posted @ 17:57 - Link
Saturday, 01 February 2020
It is nice to find someone who makes me happy again. There are days I still struggle, and sadness tries to seep in, but his words, his smile makes me happy again and chases it away. He's so sweet, even when I'm sleepy he comes in and cooks stew, or leaves me love notes to find when I do wake, or if I wake and am not awake long he will curl up with me and just hold me and talk with me until I fall asleep. He makes me feel loved again, him actually being around makes me want to wake more, makes me want to live again.
Rosaline posted @ 11:30 - Link
Monday, 11 November 2019
Perhaps I am getting better. I finally slept completely soundly.. not just passed out and dreamless from exhaustion, but actual comfortable sleep! I haven't been able to do that for a year and a half... since the summer faire I lost myself. But this turn I feel, exhilarated! So light and free, it almost makes me dizzy. I honestly didn't think it was possible, but I think I might be falling in love again. Every time I wake I am excited for his company, I look forward to seeing him. He took the darkness away and brought back the light. It is wonderful feeling so giddy and happy.
Rosaline posted @ 11:19 - Link
Sunday, 20 October 2019
Some days I feel like such a fraud. He calls me angel...when I don't feel like much of one, if I am then my "wings" were ripped from me and left me in a constant pain that never really goes away, I've just become good at hiding it. Trying to allow myself to become close to another... when for so very long another held my heart. Most days though... I admit it is nice... to feel wanted, and I do look forward to the being around one who makes me smile again, but days still come that I miss what was, I miss him. I know moving on doesn't make that go away, I know he will always be a part of me, though there are days I now wonder if that was all a sweet dream because he seems so distant from me now. Life is so uncertain and unfair, but one has to do the very best they can with what they have. The one I am with now wants me to meet his sister, I have to admit I am quite nervous about that, it seems like such a huge commitment... like the next step in the relationship that I am not sure I am ready for. Though he also said she is already interested in being a cleric, to have a student would be a blessing I hate to turn away, so I certainly have mixed feelings right now, and I think that has affected the dreams which have turned dark and tormenting again.
Rosaline posted @ 15:02 - Link
Thursday, 17 October 2019
((short sweet poem made on the fly. lol))
On the sea of lifes uneven swells, there our lives sometimes dwells, it's ups... it's down. It can be peaceful, or it can be rough...
And sometimes you seem like your sail is not enough.
But those you meet along the way, are bright lights that burn along the shore, to lead you safely home once more.
Rosaline posted @ 20:46 - Link
Sunday, 01 September 2019
Showed a couple new members around the guild hall today, it invoked SO many memories. Some sweet, some still hurt to think of, one room in particular I had trouble staying in. Just being there made it hard to breath. I've avoided that room... for a long time, only being there long enough to pass through to anther on occasion. My chest was so tight... even with family there with me. But then, they don't know the memories that room invokes in me, of another lifetime.
Rosaline posted @ 18:20 - Link