I sit here in the garden once again. A garden I turn too while lost in my thoughts often times when I am personally soul searching. Looking around me at the flowers and plants blooming with life and ready to take in the new day. Letting a few last final tears fall for a past that I am leaving behind. Allowing myself a moment of sorrow to let go of what once was. Looking forward I see the happiness I longed for, that I am told I deserve. A happiness that was always there, only hidden behind a door I had once closed to open another.

I have accepted that fate likes to throw things my way to test my endurance and will to thrive. Though I felt like I was falling into an endless abyss. I found I was only falling into these loving arms that wrap around me and remind me what I can accomplish and be. Those same loving arms hold firmly on protecting me from further pain while I hear the whispers telling me all will be fine. Not only from him but from those that I love around me.

Though my past will always be a part of me, it helped form me into the caring, loving and enthusiastic young lady I have become. The scars formed my insecurities and a deep will of over coming what lies before me. I promised him this. I will be at his side through anything we have thrown at us and will be his best friend and much more though it all. The worst of pasts we have both faced have created the best future that lays before us.