I sit here saddened and confused. I miss my rogue deeply, but I miss my dear friend just as much. Broutac sleeps, and my friend is a busy man. Sitting here crying trying to figure out how know my rogue is ok and to tell my friend I want some time with him.
How do I tell him I still need him? I need that brother figure he is to me. Someone that understands me. But how can I ask for his time when he is so busy? How can I expect him to make time for me when he is working or with his love?
I am very restless lately and seem to be edgy at time. I try to not take it out on others, but with missing Broutac and my friend at the same time it is hard.
I am learning to trust others slowly, Sehdae has been talking to me some. I like her she is fun to be around. And Cally I always enjoy my talks with her.
On a bright note Summerfaire is in full swing. I showed up to the lemonade social, but only stayed a few moments. I also went to the Garden party with the support of Low and Azure. I did retreat to the beach after a bit, it was just to much. Azure was nice to come and check on me. Though me and Azure rushed back into the garden at word of birds attacking.
I hope in time my unease with crowds will fade.
I love you my dear Broutac, please wake soon. And my dear brother figure Gerse, I love you too.