Dear Journal,

Dying and reforming three times in one day is pretty tiring work y'know. Pretty painful, too - all these scratches and bruises...

But, all the agonising training has come in use. That is the most I have trained in one day - and I have new gauntlets! Sea scale - I've got a helmet and a pair of boots made from the same thing in my pack, but I'm not using them of yet.

You know...I find myself smiling and laughing more often now. And I find myself more eager to train. I think I am finally melding into Valornian life. My past is just a dark shadow on a light full of bright future. Is it bright? It may not be, but I try my best to be optimistic y'know.

I feel like I'm a girl of 18 summers old again. I don't worry as much anymore...I find myself enjoying the dreams that await me even more...and I find myself calling my guildhall my home.

Because Valorn is my home - it is a home full of friends and love and surprises. And evil. Terrible evil.

I just hope Seph's words will not cast another shadow on my life.

Ermin xxx