We can talk for marcs and marcs about endless crap and not even notice. It's nice, to have that level of comfort with him, I know the side that I see of him is not one that most others see and that confuses me somewhat. I only ever see the part that loves and wants to be loved. He is so tender when he wishes to be, so willing to share of himself. I love him for that, so much so. Gah, enough of him, before he becomes all I talk of, no doubt that would amuse him.

There are not many things I have had to do as a leader that have made my stomach sink. I dont like to upset people, I dont like making others feel rejected, or turning them down. I have to do what is best for the guild and what they decide, it does not make it any easier to do however.

Sorynn is worrying me, desperately so. I know she will probably read this but tough. She has retreated almost completely, whether it is just from me or not I do not know, but I cannot get more than two or three word answers from her. I am completely powerless to do anything to fix it. What she needs I cannot provide, I cannot bring people back nor give her purpose of any kind. All I can do is tell her I love her and that I am here for her, that she is loved. Not that she believes me.