Sometimes, no matter what you do, you just arent the right thing, or you dont have the right skills, or the right tone. Or maybe you are just poking your nose in where it's not wanted. Sometimes, though you can make someone laugh, you cannot stop them running, or cure their yearning, or fix..anything. Sometimes they need something else, and it's just not you. I've had one of those days, weeks even. I just seem to make things worse, not better...and nothing that passes my lips seems to aid anyone, perhaps thats a sure sign to just shut up from now on.

So, sorry to all those that have suffered me these last few days. I think I have upset Gareth somehow also, yet again. This time I am completely oblivious to what I could possibly have done. I dont know why it affects me so much, but I can't seem to cope as well, when I know he is upset with me. And yes, I know..how dare I put on him like that, I know I shouldnt and I know it's wrong. Im just gonna keep quiet and low for a bit, I feel so..exposed...judged. But then, I probably deserve that.

Nothing I write past this point is going to seem anything but fickle, so...it's time to just shut up and get on with it.