It's Trips birthday today, he wont tell anyone at all unless I poke him I know it. I intend to make a fuss of him while I have the excuse to do it

Gareth is back, it was so good to see him, I missed him so much...yes, I am entirely selfish, but it was nice to alleviate my worries and make sure he was okay and well.
I was a little harsh with Andromeda earlier I think, I didnt mean to come across that way, but I was confused and a little disorientated about why I was in cerbies. I felt awful then, I didnt want to upset her..and every word I said just seemed to ring hollow. Gah

Im confused, again, how apt. I cant help being drawn, it scares me a little. How can I not be? The scent of lavender fills my mind, I can't think with it near, it clouds my judgement, stops my common sense..and lets be honest, I was not blessed in that area to begin with.

Tonights intrusion should keep him guessing for a bit, serves his right for confusing me.