I stopped being an idiot, briefly...for once. About time too...some of my actions are based purely on my emotions, no thought process involved and I can be so callous when I am not thinking. Only ever thinking of myself, my selfishness ...knows no bounds sometimes. As always he accepted it with no words of blame..I apologised profusely for being childish and impulsive...and he forgave me and let me back into his life....though he seemed so subdued, like he was past caring.