Another sponsee, he asked me some time back and I hadnt prepared for it. I am somewhat ashamed of myself in that respect, but with everything thats been going on it just got placed to the back of my mind...but I know everything I need to tell him, and what to prepare him for. I had forgotten what a joy being a sponsor can be.

Im just so tired today, I have no energy for anything at all..I cant think properly and my emotions are dulled...my apathy the only thing with any real grip on my life. I hate arguing with him, it frustrates and bewilders me. I felt so lost as he sat there and told me what was wrong, things I had no answer for.

I just can't think right now