And I have done it again...yet again my actions and words have caused people harm

It doesnt matter that he didnt mean it, the words rang with truth and eventually everyone sees it. I made Gareth feel less, I can never forgive myself for that, for making him feel ..taken for granted, even for a moment..sometimes I am so self absorbed in my actions, that I forget the affect I have on others....if I were to give Gareth the time and praise he is due I would have to spend eternity thanking him for all that he has done for me..he listens, and he is impartial even when to do so causes him pain, he is there for me...always, no matter what..he watches my tears fall and comforts me..even when he must be feeling such turmoil inside....I am so grateful for him and I can never begin to explain....I know about feeling used, it's the most degrading thing you can endure...for me to have brought that feeling about for him is something I will forever, until the end of my days, regret....HE is worth it...he is worth more than I can ever give

Amzer..I wish I knew what to do for him, how to help...I feel like I am hounding him, constant questions about how he is, if he needs anything....I feel awkward, I know I am making his situation worse, and I know I am responsible for some of his problems...how he can face me at all stuns me...I just want to take it away, make sure he is well, and at least comfortable...I know I cannot fix things for him...but I dont know how to find the right balance between being there and letting him find his way...I cannot seem to get things right, and I am just hurting him more

In the end everyone realises it...the words rang with truth...they all will eventually