*slips silently into the mountains, lingering in the empty lot she sits, pondering the last few days. She opens the book she purchased many moons ago, thinking tis time she finally gave it due. Pulling a gull plume and ink from her pack, she carefully parts the book and begins to scribe her musings*


The last few days have been harrowing....I feel a deep scar across my heart , my integrity feels flawed, listless, a deceit unto myself.....but I know I wished to do it

I left Sanc....my home, my family for so long. I had no wish for it to seem underhanded, but alas, in hindsight, my error is blissfully and excrutiatingly clear

I love, all of them, for what they have made me. I owe them everything and in return I gave them nothing. They made me, shaped me and brought me forth from the shell I began as.

Not once, but twice did they accept me with open arms, after I was foolish and flighty...and again I show the true nature of my heart..I miss them all and I feel so ...unclean somehow, that I would do this without word to the people I love

I've no defence save to say I was as unaware it would happen as they...until the very moment I left

And so I start a new day....with the torturous ache, dragging me in one direction, and the pure thrill of the unknown creation before me, pulling me the other

Into the fray of a new guild, a new home, and hopefully, in time they will become my family also...for no matter how the rest of sanctuary feel....they will forever be ingrained deeply upon my life, in my thoughts and all they have given me held safe and cherished within my soul

With trepidation and awe I embark upon this......I hope deep within myself I can live up to my ideals ...if only once in my life