I spoke to Pallas again the other day, and he said something that I thought about again later. About time, too much time to sit and think. Even though most people think going out and killing endlessly, over and over, is some sort of answer, I wonder if it is a good answer. An answer to the problem of too much time and too many thoughts clouding up the mind. When that seems to be too much for one mind to bear, is the answer to go and talk to other people? To go and occupy yourself with other things, trying to distract your mind...or would aimless killing be better? I just wonder...I know its great to rid the land of more evil while at the same time satisfying pent up frustration, but I don't really think it releases that energy. I think it just sort of...amplifies it. Lets it grow, because once you stop your still not satisfied. And nothing really does satisfy the urge, not any means of repression that could be utilized-talking, wandering, anything. I think that the thing is, one needs to confront the thing that is making their mind do loops to give a flying cannon rider envy. That the reason it nags and pesters us and forces the mind to think on too many things is a sign that it needs to be resolved...not put away. So in that way, thinking so much really isn't such a bad thing, right? As long as we are trying to work on the problems and not trying to find a way to bury them deeper.


Then again...I wish I didn't think too much. I prefer things to remain incased in ice and tucked away, not to see the light of day. I can understand the allure of repression.