When I woke up S was there, I ran and leaped into his arms, it seems like so long since I last did that. So we were talking and G was there and she asked him if we were going to get bonded. He said that we hadn't really discussed it, but it was looking good. So I guess all I can do now is sit back and wait for him to ask me. I told him I love him, it's the first time I said that to him. I do love him, he makes me smile, and I can feel myself grinning every time I hear his name. But there's still a part of me that's holding back. I just don’t want to get hurt again, and I know he wouldn’t do that, but then I thought that before with someone else.

I don’t know, I just feel really distracted at the moment, I don’t know why. So I am spending the day farming, I really can’t train but I need to do something to keep my mind busy. I don’t like to think too much right now. Well so I'm in the mountains just farming but not really trying that hard, and G suggested that we play a game, I said eye spy but they didn’t agree so we played a word game. It was so funny there was one point where both S and me shouted out the same thing. In the end I just gave up farming and just sat down on the ground and played this game. Some of the things we were coming out with were pretty funny, but I guess it's one of those moments where you have to be there.

I'm trying not to hide in the shadows so much now. I'm slightly happier so I don’t need to try to keep out of sight. Plus if I stay in the shadows I will miss out on all the fun we’ve been having in the guild.