I'm scared, I was getting so comfortable with how things were. I look forward to seeing him everyday. But then he mentioned he is looking forward to the day we may be bonded. He has yet to even say he loves me, and honestly I'm not even sure if what I feel is love. And as for bonding..what do I know of bondings? My parents were never around to show me an example, and because of this I had no idea how to be a bondmate and in that place what I did know of them had nothing to do with love, only duty, pass on wealth, titles and such. I had such dreams of bonding for love.. and I adored my first bondmate but once we were bonded I had no clue what to do... how to be a bondmate...sadly still dont. And because of how things happened.. it was almost as forced as my parents had tried... but we were trapped none the less... And while I was at first thrilled... He wasn't and I didn't know how to handle that, so I ran... now my own failings with my one and only bonding left me confused, hurt, and scared to try again. Will he understand that for me.. bonding is not a continuation of love as it is for so many?