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A beautifully bound leather book the ornate and gold-edging decorating this journals outer covering looks to be from another time and place. Several pages are stuffed inside the book as if she will not write on the actual book. Upon opening, the first added page reads... These are the personal accounts and wanderings of Lavender Cecilia Morgan.

Sunday, 29 October 2017
Fall Festival has started and after finding a LOT of bandito's for others I finally found one of my own. Got a portal dweller costume, which I find quite ironic being an enchanter. So I decided to go sit in the Nexus and see what fun could ensue when a wind started blowing.. and a lovely Black Orchid like no flower I have ever seen in Valorn, blew in and landed before me. What a lovely surprise! By far my favorite find of this Fall Festival, and it found me!
Lavender 12:36 - Link - comments

Friday, 13 October 2017
Again I reflect upon my life, I smile at some memories, yet the same happy memory makes me sad all the same for what was lost. How I wish, I could go back and do some things over, to find the courage I needed before. Oh to make different, better choices. But alas I can only long for what might have been had I not been such a fool. The memories, and the love of the friends I still have are all that sustain me. Recent events while making me sad again for what once was, perhaps also give me a glimmer of hope. Perhaps I am not as lost as I feel. Perhaps since I've made peace, I will find happiness once again, I hope so. Only this time I won't be scared. I've stopped running, and I've found my way home again, perhaps now my path will lead me to where I want to be. Only time will tell.
Lavender 12:17 - Link - comments

Thursday, 12 October 2017
Ah... a bonding of a friend.. such a joyful time, yet one that is bittersweet for me as well. I do so enjoy seeing my friends so filled with love, joy, and hope. Yet... seeing it makes me feel like I am a terrible person, because while on the one side I am overjoyed at their happiness, at the same time I feel all the more isolated, hopeless, and alone. Is there something wrong with me?...
Lavender 15:27 - Link - comments

Sunday, 01 October 2017
Of late I try to roam... more out of habit...I make it usually as far as Milltown and I turn around and go home again the habit of running or roaming is certainly gone.. for which I am glad. For a LONG time I stayed away from my guild hall home, scared I guess of the memories it invokes. But finally about half a cycle back I went home... and now it is like my feet have taken root and I can not make myself leave again. It feels so good to be home, where I belong instead of one of my many wandering spots. Love them though I do, and I am sure I will visit them again especially the balcony of Caernivale, by far my most visited spot. But for now I am home. No more do I wander or roam. No more do I worry where I am suppose to be... who I am suppose to be. I am content to be where I am, and who I am. I have grown use to my own company and expect nothing from no one and I suppose I have been lost so long no one expects anything from me either. I look forward to the changing of the season. The Fall Festival is fast approaching and I look forward to it's festivities once more.
Lavender 21:35 - Link - comments