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A beautifully bound leather book the ornate and gold-edging decorating this journals outer covering looks to be from another time and place. Several pages are stuffed inside the book as if she will not write on the actual book. Upon opening, the first added page reads... These are the personal accounts and wanderings of Lavender Cecilia Morgan.

Monday, 19 March 2018
Today is a day I feel my smile is a fracade, I smile, I laugh, but feel no joy in the motion. I feel empty...perhaps I've been zombiefied to many times and have had more taken from me then just my body... even if it is reformed. Perhaps I am tired...or perhaps, seeing smiling couples makes me bitter, I do so envy them. That for me is worse then anything demon, god, or being has done to me. Such a simple, innocent, sweet thing, makes me so very sad, reminds me how alone I am.
Lavender 21:53 - Link - comments

Saturday, 10 March 2018
Fear? I think all fear has vanished in the light of recent personal events. A gentleman I've always had a crush on, but always assumed he was taken. Said he's always been a fan of mine. To be honest that to me was at first odd..a fan? Why would anyone be my fan? But I've got butterflies in my stomach...and I can't seem to stop smiling. The future may be brighter then I thought.
Lavender 08:29 - Link - comments

Thursday, 08 March 2018
My mild fear have deepened. But I think they have more to do with my own past mistakes, then truely being frightened by this being..Or perhaps I fear what he seems to repersent ...death. And not the kind the Life Monuments can bring one back from. All this is speculation, for I am feeling inadequate and uncertain about everything in my life. But regardless of feeling, I will stand and fight when the time comes. And my aim will be true.
Lavender 09:27 - Link - comments

Wednesday, 07 March 2018
Thank goodness for others. If not for someone other then myself seeing something similar to my own experience, then I might have thought my mind had finally snapped. So thankful for Cody, he believes me sight unseen himself. I have no clue who or what this new entity is, but I do know it is cruel and loves to kill us, despite the fact we come back to fight again. I will admit to being frightened but fear will not stop me from doing what I must to protect my home, and my friends. Only time will tell now what may come.
Lavender 08:15 - Link - comments

Friday, 02 March 2018
Woke this day, feeling as if I couldn't breathe. Tears stinging my eyes unshed. No idea what brought them there...I feel barren and more alone then ever. I wander the realm like a restless spirit that can't go back to living and can't move on to what comes next.
Lavender 15:10 - Link - comments