A beautifully bound leather book the ornate and gold-edging decorating this journals outer covering looks to be from another time and place.
Several pages are stuffed inside the book as if she will not write on the actual book. Upon opening, the first added page reads... These are the personal accounts and wanderings of Lavender Cecilia Morgan.
Saturday, 04 July 2020
Why is it a girl can not be melancholy without the notice of others? What's worse is I got called out by the Wold Crier. It doesn't help I seem to have a new suitor... why is it guys seem to think my being kind is a form of flirting? I miss someone very, very much, I think about them all the time, despite being told numerous times to move on.. as if I haven't tried. I have genuinely liked all the guys I have dated, and it is obvious I do not want to be alone. But I am not certain I will be able to settle, the guys I see deserve more then I can give it seems. Doesn't help that the one I am currently trying to see is rarely around.. perhaps if he were things could change, he at least understood missing someone else.
Lavender 12:50 - Link
Friday, 19 June 2020
It seems my impulsive nature will always get me in trouble. Will I ever learn? Perhaps I would have been better off if I'd never picked up a sword, never opened my mouth and given my opinion, never tried to do what I believe is right because seems everytime I do, I'm wrong. What's wrong with me?
Lavender 19:26 - Link
Sunday, 31 May 2020
There are days when I feel nothing I do is right, nothing I do is good enough. I say what's on my mind someone gets mad and I then wish I'd kept my mouth shut. I try and do what I believe is right and end up agonizing over it for several turns because I invariably make the wrong choice.. seems to be something I will never stop doing... Learning by making all the wrong choices in life first. Will my life ever be simple?
Lavender 15:59 - Link
Monday, 25 May 2020
Imagine my surprise when I got ready to leave.. and after waking out of my cabin to see a quilt I created drift from my pack, I in a panic ran back into my cabin thinking I had dropped it, and didn't want it lost to time as somethings are... only to find it neatly spread out on my bed. Then the goddess Magistra Kailani graced my humble cabin with her presence. She explained that she loved my quilt and thought it would be lovely on my bed for all to see! A lovely place for it to be indeed. Such an honor to have a goddess in my home. Though I hadn't the heart to tell her I rarely have visitors. Who knows what the future holds. I certainly didn't expect a visitor of the godly kind this turn... or any turn in fact. Perhaps I should invite people over more oft?...
Lavender 20:00 - Link
Monday, 27 April 2020
Well, the crown has gone on its way though I do not know where it has gone. I sit here at the pond, my mind wandering as it tends to do sadly my thoughts are not good ones as I yet again ponder my existence, and why I feel cursed to feel rejected or alone no matter who I am with or where I go. Why does my own mind hurt me so?
Lavender 11:17 - Link
Wednesday, 15 April 2020
I can't believe it, I've had the Enchanted Crown of Munificence for half a cycle, and it seems every time, thanks to the crown, that the crier announces my un-jerkness... someone asks me who was calling me a jerk! It is amusing and so very, very sweet that others rush to defend me in such a way. I enjoy being helpful, I am glad people see me as someone they can trust. I am glad I've learned to trust myself again. I feel... whole. I've never felt this way before in my life, and no person gave that to me, do I like being alone.. no. But I also know I have to trust my heart, my morals, and my beliefs.
Lavender 15:46 - Link
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Monday, 13 April 2020
Will this feeling, this longing ever go away?
Lavender 17:24 - Link
Tuesday, 07 April 2020
I would rather die knowing I gave this world my best, than to live and know I didn't.
Lavender 14:19 - Link
Sunday, 05 April 2020
I knew some people's dislike of athority around Valorn. But today I came face to face with animosity as there was no Iron Order to take command and I was the highest adventure awake to take care of Abayde's toys and minions, as I and a couple others were doing well though it was tough. Then I had an adventurer be down right rude running around spawning more zombies over running the town with small ones just because they can run past them, not caring that the towns people and smaller adventurers can not. Not caring that there is an order and plan in place for this. And when I asked him to stay still so we could dwindle down the numbers he basically told me off preferring to do his own thing, making the task of those actually fighting this correctly more difficult as he would draw away zombies someone was working on and have it double up making the next spot harder for them. Some people never learn that sometimes you have to work together.
Lavender 20:49 - Link
Thursday, 02 April 2020
It was a very interesting turn last turn. The gods decided to charge us for every death! Then proceeded to kill us in many different ways! As well as an invasion of reapers that were nearly impossible to kill. Despite this I fought as hard as I could, though it was interesting to compare deaths with other adventurers. At the end of the turn we found the gods were playing a joke on us all... I was exhausted, and nearly passed out standing up. But my energies were renewed as the Crown of Munificence came to me. I've never worn a crown before! Low was not pleased the crown left him to come to me. I doubt it will stay long, but it is still an honor to be allowed it's presence for a time.
Lavender 17:21 - Link