A beautifully bound leather book the ornate and gold-edging decorating this journals outer covering looks to be from another time and place.
Several pages are stuffed inside the book as if she will not write on the actual book. Upon opening, the first added page reads... These are the personal accounts and wanderings of Lavender Cecilia Morgan.
Tuesday, 07 April 2020
I would rather die knowing I gave this world my best, than to live and know I didn't.
Lavender 14:19 - Link
Sunday, 05 April 2020
I knew some people's dislike of athority around Valorn. But today I came face to face with animosity as there was no Iron Order to take command and I was the highest adventure awake to take care of Abayde's toys and minions, as I and a couple others were doing well though it was tough. Then I had an adventurer be down right rude running around spawning more zombies over running the town with small ones just because they can run past them, not caring that the towns people and smaller adventurers can not. Not caring that there is an order and plan in place for this. And when I asked him to stay still so we could dwindle down the numbers he basically told me off preferring to do his own thing, making the task of those actually fighting this correctly more difficult as he would draw away zombies someone was working on and have it double up making the next spot harder for them. Some people never learn that sometimes you have to work together.
Lavender 20:49 - Link
Thursday, 02 April 2020
It was a very interesting turn last turn. The gods decided to charge us for every death! Then proceeded to kill us in many different ways! As well as an invasion of reapers that were nearly impossible to kill. Despite this I fought as hard as I could, though it was interesting to compare deaths with other adventurers. At the end of the turn we found the gods were playing a joke on us all... I was exhausted, and nearly passed out standing up. But my energies were renewed as the Crown of Munificence came to me. I've never worn a crown before! Low was not pleased the crown left him to come to me. I doubt it will stay long, but it is still an honor to be allowed it's presence for a time.
Lavender 17:21 - Link
Monday, 09 March 2020
I feel like an utter failure this turn, I was left for a moment in charge of dispersing people for the assault Abayde had launched on us, and I went utterly blank... had to pass the task of getting things taken care of to another, because I had to sleep for a marc or two. I can't even say how embarrassed I am, I wanted to prove myself to be capable as I've done with raids in the past but I feel I've only managed to discouraged myself.
Lavender 18:15 - Link
Sunday, 08 March 2020
Despite my earlier trepidation, I find myself blushing and laughing more then I have in a long time. And I have to say this is the first guy I've liked since my first love that got my best friends approval. For the first time in a long while the future doesn't seem bleak and lonely.
Lavender 23:04 - Link
Saturday, 29 February 2020
I'm scared, I was getting so comfortable with how things were. I look forward to seeing him everyday. But then he mentioned he is looking forward to the day we may be bonded. He has yet to even say he loves me, and honestly I'm not even sure if what I feel is love. And as for bonding..what do I know of bondings? My parents were never around to show me an example, and because of this I had no idea how to be a bondmate and in that place what I did know of them had nothing to do with love, only duty, pass on wealth, titles and such. I had such dreams of bonding for love.. and I adored my first bondmate but once we were bonded I had no clue what to do... how to be a bondmate...sadly still dont. And because of how things happened.. it was almost as forced as my parents had tried... but we were trapped none the less... And while I was at first thrilled... He wasn't and I didn't know how to handle that, so I ran... now my own failings with my one and only bonding left me confused, hurt, and scared to try again. Will he understand that for me.. bonding is not a continuation of love as it is for so many?
Lavender 22:49 - Link
Winters Warming is done, it was lovely while it lasted. I do so love the season in all it's beauty, watching the snow shimmer on the ground in the rifters light. But with the close of Winters Warming something interesting happened.. a new goddess came down from the rifter to mingle among us mortals. Another purple goddess... like Kane was. I wonder who's side she is on, she seems to be a benevolent goddess, though it is strange I feel as if I've felt her presence before.. as if she was watching before she fully let herself known to us. I shall be watching to see what the goddess Magistra Kailani has in store for us mortals. And on another note, though probably a corny one, winter was certainly warmer for me this year, since I've found myself no longer alone.
Lavender 10:28 - Link
Sunday, 23 February 2020
Tiberius has not been my only companion of late, my poor bear is probably glad for the respite. It is nice to not be alone, it is nice also to know he doesn't expect anything from me right now other then company, and his company keeps the chill of winter away as his flattery flutters my heart and causes me to blush. Perhaps there is hope for the future, but I refuse to dream of a future right now. Too many times now have I done so only to have it crumble before ever being close to fullfilled. One turn at a time, I refuse to think beyond that. Perhaps the fog..has lifted.
Lavender 22:47 - Link
Wednesday, 19 February 2020
A memory was pulled from my mind today... but not a memory if that makes any sense. More a feeling... a search that is never fulfilled.
Lavender 21:00 - Link
Saturday, 08 February 2020
It is not often that someone surprises me. Usually I can read someones intentions before they plan to do something.. but tonight I found myself completely taken by surprise, more then once.. by the same person! I hope it happens again.
Lavender 23:33 - Link