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It is so strange... to have important people in your life.. suddenly vanish.

Whether from a clash or from an unfortunate event.. you begin to genuinely miss them no matter the reason because it was that person you used to talk to every day.. and now they are just gone.

It makes me a little sentimental, I don't remember being this way.. well I haven't since I broke my first love's heart. And now here I am, knowing my purpose in life but always battling, fighting, never truly winning, but helping to fight toward victory nonetheless.

Having it only been a few turns, or maybe even an entire week without talking to Dabria has made me realize that I used to reach out to her a lot, and now she's lost her mind and there's nothing any of us could do about it, or at least it feels that way... when the person who's been helping the most is in need of help there's nobody out there to help them.. sheesh.. that sucks.

Kenji can't speak because of a curse, Dabria's lost every one of her marbles, what's next? I don't wanna think about it... and so I continue to throw myself into battles, not knowing if I'm doing any damage at all, it is because of the gods I am even still alive right now.. sore... but living. Will you continue to throw yourself into battle? Yes, anything to protect the lands. "You win some you lose some", it's true.. and thus, what will be, will be.

Que sera-sera.

Quote: "We all have a past. We don't all use it to excuse the present. Most choose to learn from it and move on" -- Dabria F.

She's right... but what I've learned this turn itself is that not all of us are able to...

While some others are strong enough to live and move on, others are stuck, trapped, unable to pass to the next level that would lead to success because they simply can't.. they simply choose not to. I was once this person, who was unable to pass the bounds and shackles of life, stuck in banditry and unable to move passed it. That old lifestyle haunted me, I wasn't able to escape the boundaries and boulders, the wall that was placed before me.. but not because I didn't want to, it was because I didn't know how to. Life through me in for a loop, when I finally escaped that lifestyle, running and running for my life, because if I were captured then I knew that would be the end of me. Becoming an adventurer here in Valorn has taught me to face so many battles that I never thought I could ever win, not even because of the real fights acquired, but the faces, the smiles, laughter.. the people were who saved me. I am forever grateful in the presence of many friends I've made.. and some I've lost.

Valorn is full of all sorts of personalities, I didn't always obtain friends.. it wasn't exactly enemies either, but I've hurt people just as much as people have hurt me. Saying "sorry" doesn't immediately heal wounds, but it's a start. No matter how many times I've expressed that I didn't mean to, or that it wasn't my intention, none of those words matter because they are repeated. It is actions that speak louder, and actions will ALWAYS speak louder.

"But the pain doesn't lessen. It is a wound that festers and never heals, you you...unfortunately are just a reminder of it now."

I've.. never been someone's pain before, honestly, I feel that it's the first thing someone's ever said this to me in my life. When someone tells you that, how do you respond? I've been trying to figure it out, but I almost feel like I've lost a friend, I probably did... I don't know. Change only happens when a person chooses to do so, and if they choose not to then they will be stuck in an endless and repeated cycle of pain and torture, this abuse is inflicted on themselves.. it's sad to witness.. someone crumble themself so far down that they attack the only person willing to help them overcome it; that they see this person as "pain".

I never planned to be someone's pain, I've only ever wanted to express and show to others the opposite of what I had to experience almost my entire life, pain. So I guess I am that now.. how does this feel Loki? you may ask, or maybe I'm asking myself.. well it feels; like nothing. I am no one's pain, I refuse to be. I will never be. We say silly things when emotional, but I know that pain is temporary. I can't express it to everyone but I am aware of myself and know exactly who I am, and the answer is YES I like the person I've become.

I hope that someday everyone overcomes their fears and these growing pains in life to move to the next level! This is something I'll work hard toward, and with this thought process in mind, I know that I will succeed.

The shadows are guiding me. ~ I walk in the footsteps of grand leaders, and take every step while collecting knowledge, increasing my intellect.

I can't believe I found my original journal! And after all these times.. I knew it was somewhere.

So what did I do? Rip the pages out of the new one and threw it in the old! This one was my favorite anyways.

There was one thing I was taught in Banditry that stuck with me.. and that was the circle of life. Apparently, not everything is all goody-shoes and happiness.. negativity is unfortunately just as necessary as positivity.. A mute Cleric once told me this in her own way..

I had left Valorn to visit my sister’s barn.. perhaps to prove this theory? But mainly because my sister needed me. She needed my help with redecorating, and a lot of it. This took awhile.. a long while, cycles. I was even beginning to lose track of time. Honestly, it was just a good feeling to step out into a new scenery, though this decision was hard.. however, I felt like something was missing in me.. and had to figure this out myself. My sister did give me the directions to the barn, though I thought I had wrote it down.. but I guess I didn’t! So traveling down there by memory of what she might and might have not told me was rather difficult, however, I was determined to get down there, and so nothing was holding me back.

There was a road that I remembered me and Kathryn.. my biological mother; used to take. The grounds were slightly bumpy however the dirt resembled sand, the colour of a burnt orange.. that’s when I knew I was getting close to the barn, I remembered the scent of many flowers and farm life getting caught up in the winds, in resemblance to a mixture of honeydew and hay. This was the only thing that helped me find my way to the barn.. that red, brown, and white painted barn with a broken down gate, though the field was quite large, the place needed some work.. however it was comfortable enough to live in. My feet was pained from much walking, more walking than I’ve ever done in my life! At least it felt that way. Though when I finally made it to the doors, I hesitated. I hesitated to allow my knuckles to touch the red wood of, to alarm my sister that here I was, standing at the door, waiting for it to be opened. The warnings I had received from ever standing on this land again was lingering in my mind, and I almost turned around. No. I did turn around. I was about to head back from once I came, however, I didn’t need to knock.. it was a good thing that my sister was returning from apparently a walk, so I turned around to greet her; “Loki?!” Her voice sounded of both mixed emotion and also confusion, which is what I expected.. I gave her no warning of my visit.

And to think that I was going to actually turn away and walk off, she got lucky.. then again, if I would have left, it probably would have been the biggest mistake of my life. “Valya.” Was my words, and boy was I happy that she stopped me from almost leaving.

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [COLOR=purple]The things I've witnessed it grand detail which involved Kairiel Bosburn...[/COLOR]

Quote: Kairiel lit a firework, and it soars up and explodes into a green and gold dragon which marches through the sky briefly before disappearing.

This was turns ago.. and she seemed in a bad mood! But then I told her I thought we were going to light fireworks again! She lit hers, and spoke of the dragon! In which we named Rielki. Rielki had many stories, stories of it being a fallen star and tried to shine just as bright as the sunrifter.. and stories of it being a small fire, which grew so big to protect the other flames! So big that it reached the sky! This was a magical moment for me, I have never seen a dragon firework before.. If I could, I would capture this.. hm Wait I CAN! I CAN DRAW IT!!

It has been a few turns, about a half a cycle I think sense my last page of journalism! I feel so horrid, but just a few turns ago, I wasn't able to write with my good hand.. I was stabbed, caught on the right side by an Infested Knight, trying to help Achelle fight a battle that I couldn't even fight myself.. but my whole goal was to weaken it, and so I did.

Achelle.. she helped me.
Apparently I was losing a lot of blood, and it was at that very moment I thought I was coming to my end. Did I want to give up? No. But if that was the end for me, I was at least happy to see a friend who I hadn't spoke to in awhile. She.. painfully.. stitched me up, thank goodness she was a Cleric! And despite the fact that she barely had patience! Actually she had LOTS of patience! Achelle saved my goddamn life... and I can't thank her enough.

Yeah yeah go ahead, say it! "That was a stupid move Loki!" Well I COULDN'T just watch her struggle! And there was no one at her level to help! And so, I had to do all I can.. which worked in the end! It only took two more hits for 'Chelle to kill off the thing, and then it was finally dead.

So I've been sleeping more than usual.. and I assume because of my would.. which is still painful, but I at least am able to move more than usual. And so, I'm slowly going back to training, because soon, I will be needed in battle. I'm a WARRIOR, WE DO NOT CRY GIVE UP EASILY.

Matilda has been helpful too, along with the bunnies of course. Though, Mattie has been making sure I continue to eat, sense I've been sleeping more, It's so easy to forget to eat and such..

With time comes healing.. though I refuse to waste marcs on doing so.. though I will take my friends advice.

I've been thinking about making a few changes, though I'm not quite sure of how.. or what, not yet anyways.. but soon, I will figure this out.

"Just never forget just how good you have it...brother" ...Cody. More than a teacher, but also a brother to me. And I'm thankful and happy to call him just that! Thank you for being there for me!

[SIZE=-1]Back to the basics ~ Yay for writing![/SIZE]

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=191286][COLOR=purple]Achelle Olytro[/COLOR][/url]

Quote: "Here for now, but gone in a flash. You'll never regain me, not even when looking back. What am I?"

The Past.. after a few misunderstanding times, I finally got the answer.. though I should have understood this riddle when she first said it.. however I did not. But now I do.



"What if I told you we are fitting in but can't see it, mr love riddler?" - [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow62105.html]Lady Aryana Moonson[/URL]

This turn Aryana gave me a lot of advice.. along with Matilda;

"Roots make trees grow stronger." - [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=192708]Matilda Tabor[/URL]

Thank you friends..

[URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=49361][COLOR=red]Seragil[/COLOR][/URL] said something to me earlier which.. confused the life out of me!!
He said; "You have no idea who I am do you. You ignore what you have heard and disregard my supposed reputation. Be careful Loki...I might just decide I like you."

Okay for one, WHY am I being careful if you might like me? I DON'T GET IT ISN'T THAT THE POINT?!
I'm really starting to think this pointy ear guy is really trying to confuse me, and if this is the case, then MAN it's WORKING!

Speaking of pointy ears, I really never expected to see his ears was so point.. and he ACTUALLY allowed me to touch them! They were real!! REAL POINTY EARS!

Hey to be honest, this turn was odd.. I was at least happy I've had the longest conversation I've ever had with Seragil.. and Aryana in awhile.. it was a good feeling.. though at the end of the turn, I don't know...

I started chaos.. but I didn't mean to.
Honestly, I was just trying to have fun..


[SIZE=-1]
No one understands, but the shadows do. They always do.[/SIZE]

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=191103][COLOR=purple]Cenny Konxovar[/COLOR][/url]

Quote: "Good. Cherish all of your friends, and no poisonous shadow will ever claim you. I've many and wondrous friends, whom I owe much."

Poisonous shadow..? I didn't think one existed. When he said this, I just smiled. Cenny always gives the best advice- second best anyways. I'm happy to have all of my friends, but for some reason this touched me. I suppose it's a good thing I haven't met a shadow that was poisonous, and if I have, then it had no affect on me... not unless he was talking about the past things I've experienced.. the hearts of others who seem to have no heart at t'all. The one's who wish to abduct, torture, pillage - leaving you no choice..

But that's over now.. it's gone, and it's never coming back. For now it haunts me in dreams.. and that is okay. I have wonderful friends, and I'm blessed for that.

[URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow13218.html][COLOR=blue]Zanaan[/COLOR][/URL] is officially a loser! Though a good loser! I like this lazy rogue loser! I hope he actually agrees to sewing with me.. that would be fun. Now that I have a list of people who sew, Achelle, Viviyana, Asante, Zanaan.. I don't know if there are others!

Last turn, I woke up to a spider in the throne room.. it was so cute! I named it, McLegs. He was the cutest spider! And young! Just sitting there.. scaring [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow23924.html][COLOR=brown]Marron[/COLOR][/URL], [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow191014.html][COLOR=green]Viviyana[/COLOR][/URL], and some other girl to death. Me and this one guy was okay with the spider! But once we figured McLegs wasn't going anywhere, Vivi decided that we could capture him in a helmet, and toss him off.. better than killing him, which Marron suggested. It took for Viviyana to leave to get the helmet before McLegs finally decided to leave! Cute little thing!!

I spoke with [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=49361][COLOR=black]Seragil[/COLOR][/URL].. he actually decided to be nice to me for once! Though I admit, the beginning of the conversation was hilarious! I don't know what else to write about it.. honestly. I ended up passing out in the middle of it.

[URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=192708][COLOR=teal]Matilda[/COLOR][/URL] is kind... so very. I'm not sure where to start..
She's changed you know? She's grown into the person who I am quite surprised of.
Each turn is something new, and always exciting when speaking to Mattie. I'm happy and proud of her.

In other news, Quarrus visited again this turn! And Apolla and Kenji are officially bonded! How exciting is that?!

[SIZE=-1]Out of words - ridiculously fun![/SIZE]

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow97718.html][COLOR=purple]Bebhinn Mac Airem[/COLOR][/url]

Quote: "I love you all."

Me and my guild did a lot of brainstorming, and to be honest, I think it was worth it! It has brought me, Aryana, and Bebh even more closer than it has ever before. And I love it so much!

This turn has been quite odd!! [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=192905][COLOR=blue]Tarrin[/COLOR][/URL] for one is quite the most interesting Initiate I have ever met.. though surely I admit, it was fun sitting around in a private beach with [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=192708][COLOR=teal]Matilda[/COLOR][/URL] on one end and my sponsor on the other. I haven't spent too much time with [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=178759][COLOR=red]Cody[/COLOR][/URL], so that was fun! While [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=185039][COLOR=green]Andy[/COLOR][/URL] played his zither and sung a few songs, there was lost of ale and fried fish served.. I had a blast, eating all the fish I could! I even through one at [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=57568][COLOR=purple]Raffe[/COLOR][/URL]! Thankfully.. he wasn't angry with me.

Not sure how to put this turn.. but if it were a Play it would be called; "The difference between Odd and Strange"!

[URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=191246][COLOR=brown]Kairi[/COLOR][/URL] caused a bit of mischief, and boy wasn't that hilarious! I've had a very good time.. so there's nothing to complain about. Within all the chaos, and trickery, it was rather interesting and fun. Not much happened besides all of the silly raids, which were taken out quite easily.. THANKFULLY!

I take this time to challenge myself mentally in many ways.. though I have heard the shadows, come to find out, that I was listening the entire time.. though listening very well. Following the lead in which I was meant to follow, and thus, taking the baby steps to learn what there is for me to learn, as a person, as a warrior. I stand by my profession proudly, and seize any moment that is thrown at me.

I was called a Hero this turn..
"Loki's the hero!!! Yay!!" - [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=191634][COLOR=darkgray]Atreiya[/COLOR][/url]

I wasn't sure... how to take that..

"Well fought, Jester." - [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=74610][COLOR=blue]Iron Protector Thorne Blackrose[/COLOR][/URL]

I just smiled at this.. then [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow10205.html][COLOR=red]Jake[/COLOR][/URL] applauded me as well.. all I did was like everyone else, fought to protect Valorn, though at the time that was Branishor and it's temple. I did blush.. I couldn't help it but to! SO WHAT I BLUSHED!

Though, something else happened. I was whistled to and given a random ingot.. then called pretty..
GUISE, I'M PRETTY. I LAUGHED SO HARD. ACHELLE IS MY WITNESS.

Anyways, ended the turn speaking with Matilda, priceless.

[SIZE=-1]What a wonderful world.[/SIZE]

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow173295.html][COLOR=purple]Kenji Muramota[/COLOR][/url]

Quote: "I know you find the Shadows a comfort. I do as well. You have not seen me truly mad.. I bring out the inner darkness. My animal and primal fury. I do not hold back. And there is no shame in being who you are meant to be, Loki. Not everyone can be a Tempestuous Animal of Fury in battle and keep their wits about them."

This turn, I've had the longest conversation with Kenji.. and Apolla both! It was quite intriguing.. I was told to meet him later on in the turn at the Oasis.. where the seedlings were, and boy wasn't it the most intriguing of conversations! He explained to me about darkness.. and the difference between them.

"Kane and the Sanctified Shadows the Hallowed Darkness are intertwined. Not all darkness in this world is evil. Theres the Hallowed Darkness then the Hollow Darkness.. The Hollow Darkness is... Im speculating on this. Void. Oblivion. It has no substance. Just pain torment agony..Then there is Kane and the Sanctified Darkness." - Kenji

I felt that I've known about this... I just wasn't aware of the names, nor was it explained to me.. the shadows did what they could, though, to hear from another is completely different, Kenji's a very good teacher, and I am happy to finally have had the chance to speak with him like this. I've learned so much with so little time, and right before a demon attack! Such intriguing timing!

"I just think you need to get in touch with the hallowed darkness you have within you. I see it and know its there. And once you embrace it.. Nothing can hold you back." - Kenji

Nih told me similar words, though those words weren't Nih's, those were Kenji's... I will embrace it some turn, at times, I feel it come anyways.. though I admit, the shadows have been quiet, or I have listened so much that I hadn't realized it.

KENJI ALMOST CUT MY NECK OFF WITH HIS SWORD!! To be honest, I thought I was going to die he was going to cut me, but I didn't.. and he was way too fast for my well being. I wish I had that speed! It t'would be quiet intriguing!! Though I also admired him and Apolla's control.. they held their weapons close but not too close to each other, very precised.

In other news, my sponsor said;
"And I'm a proud teacher my friend. I might not say it much but I really am proud of you" - Cody Fireblade
I... literally melted..
But not in front of him, no, I had to keep my warriorness, he shall not see me cry! No one shall!
I don't cry! What is crying?

No in all seriousness, that's all I ever strive for.. and I will continue to make him happy, and I will continue to protect my guild, Valorn and it's people.. for that is my goal entirely, and that's what I will do. My Word is yours, Valorn.. my word until I am no more.

And so at the end of my turn.. demons attacked. I didn't know Raffe had a tactic, until late.. didn't hear him.
He told me to listen next time.
How embarrassing... But I have an excuse!! I was half sleep, and then woken up.. so I couldn't think straight!!
Still.. very embarrassing.

[SIZE=-1]The shadows are guiding me. ~ I walk in the footsteps of grand leaders, and take every step while collecting knowledge, increasing my intellect.[/SIZE]

Guess what...?

Achelle read my journal and not yours!!


Ha ha!!


[SIZE=-1]Huzzah!![/SIZE]

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow40.html][COLOR=purple]High Queen Cordelia[/COLOR][/url]

Quote: "I am a fortunate Queen in that my people tend to be deeply loyal to these lands. I have every confidence in all who take up arms, whether they are within or outwith the Order, and am fully grateful for each"

I don't know.. what to say!

"I am currently engaged in a meeting which may continue for some marcs. If not too late, I will ask for your attendance afterwards. Otherwise, it will be within the next turn. ~ Cordelia, High Queen."

That was the original note I received from the Queen last turn.. and boy was I excited to see it!

"If you have the time, I am able to meet with you in one or two marcs. I will take a stroll in the Caer flower garden. ~ Cordelia, High Queen."

Dear journal
The.. best thing happened for me this turn..
After of course speaking with T'yandra two turns ago, I actually had the change to speak to Queen Cordelia.. a private conversation with her! I never thought I would ever complete this life goal, but I have.. perhaps the gods was like; "It's about damnable time!".. though regardless, I made sure to shout out a thank you to them! Whoever was listening!

The quote that I wrote above was one of the main things that stuck to me as I spoke to her.. AND YES I TOLD HER I WOULD WRITE IT!

She had apologized for keeping me waiting.. well, she had to have been in the Flower Garden within two marcs.. however, almost five marcs passed. I wasn't phased! I let her know that my sponsor taught me patience is a virtue, and so she asked me whom my sponsor was, and I told her; "Cody Fireblade is my sponsor. A great man he is!" - I wasn't over exaggerating this.. surely I was not! Though I can't say out of the majority of the meeting I was not scared.. I was SO nervous! I didn't want to mess up.

She said; "Oh, Cody... Well, obviously I hold him in high regard." With a smile! At this time we were actually sitting on the stoned benches, At first, I wasn't sure about sitting.. until she offered me too, thus I did.

I asked her about her past and if she remembered hearing stories about the weapon that Quarrus and Shamson spoke about.. she told me she did not, and it was a new discovery to her as well.. SO a NEW discovery! The mission then would prove to be completely dangerous.. if the mission was a go anyways. Though still.. I kept close to the [url=https://justpaste.it/ShamsonandSealsDG][COLOR=blue]parchment[/COLOR][/url] I made.

The second I asked her about the Order..
I asked her if she planned to recruit more someturn.. but her answer wasn't as I thought.
She said they were like family to her.. Like the bunnies are too me.. it made complete sense. Her words crushed all the other things I was going to ask about it, because she gave me an answer that there was nothing else to say afterwards.

I told her.. "I had felt, that with all that has been happening.. wraiths appearing more often, all these new discovery's... And questions, that perhaps more protection would be necessary for you and the lands, of course those were my thoughts.. though now I see it at a completely different prospective"

Then that's when she responded.. with what's quoted.. those words mean so much to me, and I feel that people should either read them, or hear them. At the end of the meeting, I asked of her favorite colour! And she told me with a smile;

"Shades of blue. Royal, aquamarine, teal. And silver."
I was too excited! was surprised she said teal!! That I do love that colour.. and so I let that be known, before introducing myself again.

We parted ways afterwards.. she spent all the free time and marcs she could with me, and that was that.. I bid her my goodbyes, and we parted..

Queen - "I gathered that from your note." She stands and dusts down her cloak. "I'm afraid I cannot put off my next duties any longer, Loki."

Me - "Completely understandable. I appreciate the marcs that you shared, please, take care. May the gods continue to bless you."

Queen - "And you, Loki."



[SIZE=-1]By far the best of turns and most memorable..
~ Thank you gods! ~[/SIZE]

QUOTE OF THE TURN:
[url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=57568][COLOR=purple]Iron Commander Raffe Rychmin the Shining[/COLOR][/URL]

Quote: "The saying goes that the gods so blessed the lineages of the High Rules of Valorn that there has never been a monarch that was anything less that was the lands have needed. Never a bad one, never a poor leader, never greedy, or self righteous, and.. there never will be. The gods saw to it that our rulers were blessed with knowing what Valorn needs, so it has always been, so it is now, and so it will ever be."

Raffe is a very wise shiny warrior.. sometimes I wonder if this was the warrior who fought the bandits..? But who knows.. I spent my turn mainly with two people, and that was Raffe and Matilda. Each person gave me a very big experience in which I learned from.. I never thought I could learn so easily, so quickly without over excessive amounts of books! Regardless, I've learned. Raffe is a man of inspiration, with many stories and quotes to share and tell, I admire that, and wish to take in whatever I can in order to learn, though this is honestly very good for me.

[url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow192708.html][COLOR=blue]Matilda[/COLOR][/url]...
We're talked so much for so long! First it was casual conversations, then we kept visiting the Killican restaurant! She showed me where the fish sandwiches and stuff were HAHA IN YOUR FACE [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=191286][COLOR=green]ACHELLE[/COLOR][/url]! And it's sad.. Achelle will never know I wrote this. ~ Tehee
I can't wait to spend time like this turn with Mattie... because in all honesty she is a wonderful and fun person to be around... I appreciate her..

At the end of this turn, I spent most of my marcs digging with Achelle, and then speaking with [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow23924.html][COLOR=teal]Marron[/COLOR][/url].. such a good turn! Even if I failed to meditate in the beginning with [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=190543][COLOR=darkgreen]Nih[/COLOR][/url]!

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=192708][COLOR=purple]Matilda Tabor[/COLOR][/url]

Quote: "I can't make use of it. And potions wouldn't last that long. I wanted to thank you properly for all the smiles you give me."

Honestly, I don't even try! Though I swear to the gods that's all I want for my friends, to be happy. Achelle told me I make people smile too, and when she did.. I can't tell you all how much I felt! To hear that I'm actually making this happen... it's a different feeling from witnessing it! And to think I was actually going to switch up my attitude? I've learned in the last few turns, that you can't please everyone.. Sehdae's words stuck with me.

Matilda and I have been spending a lot of time together.. she actually accepted my apology..
So now I will take notice, that me and Mattie is proof.. that although people can have a rough meet, if you are consistent enough, you could change all of that. Every single thing can change! Every turn I want to apologize to her, but she has already told me that there is no reason for me to, she finds me okay, and we're friends. SHE GAVE ME A FISH SANDWICH!! I didn't even know those things existed! And now I know why.. ACHELLE, she's hiding them from me!!

Speaking of Sehdae, I finally managed to give her that sweetroll like I wanted to, of course she accepted it! Now that I've been thinking about it... when she told me she was in the plains for some awkward reason, I asked her was there any cats around, she said she isn't one for competition.. does she consider herself a cat?! If this is the case, than man! She's the only cat I tolerate!! It's a good thing I don't sneeze while around her.

I am allergic to cats... It makes me fall into a sneeze fit, and then after awhile it's hard to breathe, rid the cats, rid them all, they are killers! Besides Sehdae, which is ironic because, she's also a killer... of some sort; Ha! Go figure.

Oh Achelle;
Me and her have had many conversations. Actually, we've spent so much time together! It's amazing! Though it saddens me, that I am horrible with talking to her... I can't wait to start being able to talk to her frequently, she needs another friend who can open up with her and know exactly what to say. And that'll be ME. Much love for you 'Chelle.~

Conversing with my sponsor was most interesting, we had a very long conversation about his past, I will not share it unless he wants me to, but I can see now why we are so much alike. At first, I didn't notice, until others kept telling me that I reminded them of him, it makes sense.. I sometimes see it! It's kind of awkward! But it's awesome at the same time!

KAIRI... this will never get old. You guys don't know how long I've been wanting to call Kairiel that, and NOW I can! Anyways, I'm happy to be getting so close to Kai. She's provided me with some weapon primitives, and we've had the wildest of conversations.. I'm a little upset though, I want to see the fire!! But I had other stuff to do. She was going to show me some fire stuff, and I was ready for it.. but I had to search for my sister. and JUST when I was about to leave town, in the gates came Vayla; my sister. The gods wasn't trying to let me go, it just felt that way, though if I would have left sooner, I would have missed her!

But anyways, BACK to Kairi.. she's really been giving me some good advice, even with BIG things; and she calls herself a better listener? Thank you fiery goddess number two.

I got the chance to hug and squeeze her, talk to her for a little while.. I am so happy that she's alright. She finally gave me the location of our farm; [SIZE=-2]East of the bromidic hills about one and a half a turns travels.[/SIZE]

If I ever vanish and leave for a long time, I'll be there guys.

Bebhinn....
She's confusing sometimes.. but I still love her regardless.. And all I can say is, whatever happens to us? It'll be.. worth it.. beneficial.. everything happens for a reason, whether we like the reason or not. GuildySisterKin, you will always be in my heart, even through distance.

In other news! I was trying to scare Meara! I think it worked! The conversation went something like this;
Meara was just minding her business, speaking quietly with Haggie.. and I was about to run right pass her! Until I noticed exactly who it was, mind you.. I had followed her trails, from when she passed me up; NO I WASN'T STALKING HER.
So I walk to her, with a creepy smile of my face. I said; "Meeeeraaaa".
She just looked away from Haggie and at me saying something like; "Urm.. Loki..?"
And so, I slowly walked passed her while still smiling, keeping my gaze on her.
Meara just slowly watched me. - YOU SHOULD HAVE SEEN HER FACE! She was so confused! It was hilarious!!!

I.... have so much on my list that is not done yet.
I need to draw! And I will, after the digging.. I don't want to miss anything! SO I will FINISH my drawings AFTER digging!

I broke through a hole last turn; heuheuheuheu.
I felt so.. awesome. That is all.


Feed the poor, not the rich - Thank you for your guidance shadows

QUOTE OF THE TURN:
[url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=178759][COLOR=purple]Iron Protector Cody Fireblade the Affable[/COLOR][/url]

Quote: "Life would be mighty quiet and boring without you around"

This was half of what he said, though it was regarding the search of the burials! The whole thing was;

"Be careful and don't forget my friend, Branishor has the lead on this, they will get the information and discuss what to do next, if you see anything there though let me know alright? And again, be careful friend. Life would be mighty quiet and boring without you around"

I was trying to find my reason to really smile, and I believe, I truly have. I had a long conversation with Kairiel last turn, she's truly the best, I hadn't noticed- no wait, I HAVE noticed, I was just shocked! You know what? I am content, very. I can't explain to you all how I am but I am. And I know this seems like a large gap with how I felt in my last page, but, that was six turns ago. The shadows continue to lead me, I am so blessed that they do, and very happy.

I want to thank all of my friends for being friends! You all are my life! I've made a few changes, that weren't really big changes, but they were there anyways, and I'm just now acknowledging them. I've found my place, and I'm content with that. Though I assure you, I do still have large goals.. they all will see the dark warrior within me, and although it sounds silly; Loki Dark, how?.

Kairi said I was too bright, and I am.. but with light there are shadows, with shadows, there are darkness. I am the shadow within the light, a shade in between.. though I claim the light as much as I claim the dark. I am the medium, and I don't mind that one bit.

In other news, there is SO MUCH I have to draw!! I promised Achelle a drawing for one, and then Viviyana, Nih, I want to draw Doyle, and I just!! CAN'T EVEN!!

Sehdae would look rather rosy, though whatever drawing I do, I will incorporate myself in them I have to be. Well maybe I would add myself in ALL of them, but, can you imagine that?

And then there's the PLAY, I must focus on that first, and then the drawings.

Oh and I want to give a special thanks to Matilda, she's been really helpful. Especially with choosing the color of Nih's hair. Now I must make another decision, discovery can be dangerous, however, I will not falter. There is much thinking that needs to happen, or talking conversing.

Viviyana is a protector now, I'm so proud of her.. she deserves it. I'm also very happy that we all are almost at in end of this burial search, I hope we do find something that is necessary, the door is at it's last seal, and to be honest, we truly need another. I've been keeping to myself a lot, though, I still manage to find time to speak and play around with my friends; Marc Management is what I like to call it.

There is a flaw about myself that I have, that I've just now noticed.. I serious have a hard time speaking to others who are out of my rank, though I try to I really do really don't try, I mean, even to Marron! But I will rid of this flaw soon, and learn to become a great speaker, like Hojo.

Motivation is the key to success

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=7797][COLOR=purple]Iron Protector Doyle the Holy Warrior[/COLOR][/url]

Quote: "Thank you Loki, I have no doubt you will find the path that makes you feel whole... and that you will be remembered by many as time goes on."

I do as well.. Thank You too, friend.
This conversation was not recent, no. As a matter of fact, I didn't even feel like writing in here after it. Including the one I had with Lillya. She actually begged for me to stay, I didn't even realize she cared that much? Then again, I would be a hypocrite; Sense I told her she wasn't allowed to take a walkabout, now the tables have turned. And so, I haven't.. And I think it'll stay that way.

More of my friends have told me how they think of me, and I've asked as well. Sehdae and Kairiel really gave me some good advice.

"Fire doesn't break. Just needs good tending" -- Kairiel Bosburn

"Why do you worry so what others think? No reason to feel out of place unless you feel unaccepted. You find those who accept you for you, and you make them your home, worrying not at all for what the rest think. It is a frame of mind you just choose to have, reaffirming it day to day until it just is." - Sehdae

Thank you, there were more words, though really, these ones stood out.

"Quite the ensemble. You do me a kindness, Loki. Thank you."
Those were Hojo's words. He thanked me for drawing him, it was apart of the contest!! I'm glad he liked it!!

In other news, passing the underground whole one, I had to stitch my friend up...
Literally. Darn Nih. Why did he have to endanger himself so? He's lucky to have a friend who knows how to sew so very well.. I'm happy that he at least gave himself a turn break.. that's all I asked, really. Though he should have been in bed!! Now I'm on Warrior-Guard duty, and I'm perfectly okay with that.

This whole turn wasn't too bad, I guess..
Kairiel has been teaching me a few things, it's a blessing really.. to have her there, at least someone's teaching me some things about acting.. I love it. Plus it distracts me from possibly running off and doing something stupid, like I tend to do.

I think I'm coming into myself.. I'm just not sure yet. Thankfully, Viviyana prayed for me.. it actually made me smile, for real. And yes, I put on a mask every time, because I like to see others doing the real thing. Smiling is.. contagious.

Everyone should smile...
And just be happy...

The shadows will provide.. what I yearn for.. I hope..

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=191014][COLOR=purple]Order Adjutant Viviyana[/COLOR][/url]

Quote: "Ooh can you draw me horns? I had a wax statue made of me once for the Hand's wax museum..it was of the time I poked at the crab thing and it tried to eat me."

You know, I never realized how creative my friends are. [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=192468][COLOR=green]Valya[/COLOR][/url] is making this crazy event! [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow191286.html][COLOR=blue]Achelle[/COLOR][/url] is the best artist, [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow190543.html][COLOR=maroon]Nih[/COLOR][/url] is the best cook, Viviyana's imagination is amazing, and [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=191022][COLOR=darkgreen]Sigarni[/COLOR][/URL] crafts so well.. I always wondered if I had talent like that? Despite the fact that I can dance very well. When I told Achelle that I might draw, she encouraged me to do it- er.. well more so like threatened me with her dagger! But I thank her for doing it, because of that I actually one.. it was shocking. She actually victory danced with me, I do thank Achelle for supporting me so, now she's suggesting for me to audition in Sehdae's acting auditions.. not sure if I'm going to do that or not, despite the fact that I told [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow82135.html][COLOR=purple]Sehdae[/COLOR][/url] I think I might.

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Achelle has always been special to me, I'm glad to have her as such a great friend.. I feel like I owe her something, I'll figure it out soon. Thank you for pushing me, 'Chelle. She's literally been the only one to do so, and makes me so much better.. If you guys didn't know, Achelle helped me a lot, in training, when speaking with people, and she's still helping me now in expressing, though through art. I have no idea where I would be without her pushing me, I'd probably be a lost soul! Everyone needs a little push, and I'm sure happy to get that from her.

The last few turns has been full of excitement, and so exhausting, that I haven't been able to write! But I NEED to WRITE! I write better than I speak, and have proven that with my poem;

The Wishing Star
I hoped someturns would be like a wishing star ~ Traveling balls of fire is better than war.
Traveling all night till it's no longer seen ~ Gone; Into dust with my visions and dreams.
The dreams that I carry will sparkle on shore ~ Like the tears of a child with full of joy.
The night has always been my favorite thus far ~ There is nothing on Trinald like a wishing star.
With a star, I could wish for the craziest things! ~ A glowing blossom, the color of bright green.
Hope and love would be the first thought ~ instead of fearing the wars that were fought.
A wishing star has no price it's free! ~ How unfortunate that we rarely see;
It pass through the night with a sparkle to it's shine ~ Although fire, the star is cherished like rich wine.

I hoped someturns would be like a wishing star ~ traveling balls of fire is better than war.
With war there are no wishes, with no wishes their's no fate. ~ So why would we live a land full of hate?
Valorn is strong and so are it's people ~ We'll rise through the darkness with no fear of evil!
Together as an equal we'll be aligned ~ like stars or a shield standing tall and defined.
A wish for the better, A wish for the hope ~ A wish for turns to be like a special song that was wrote.
So in reality Someturns are like wishing stars ~ Traveling balls of fire with no signs of war.

--

And still, at loss, I think I almost lost hope.. but I questioned myself; If I were to lose it, then who else would hope? I'm glad someone listened, Valya. She almost lost hope with partner life, but followed my words, and now she's happy. She got exactly what she asked for, exactly what she wanted... I'm proud of her. Good things come to those who wait for it. Surely, she had enough patience, and I'm glad she did.

Me on the other hand..
It took me awhile to realize that, I barely think about myself! Though because I stick to me goals, a promise I made myself long ago.. and although, some may fancy me, I tend to fancy many, but in the end, I think I'm actually digging myself a hole; Not intentionally, and then; Really intentional. Honestly, I have no idea what to do with myself anymore.

And as many friends as I have, at times, it feels like there aren't any all.
What would happen if Loki Jester was no more? Surely, things will be the same, nothing will change. It's not like I'm of importance.

I have to think more on this matter....
Or maybe pack my things and take my leave..
I think I see what [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow97718.html][COLOR=teal]Bebh[/COLOR][/url] was talking about.

Lone Warrior..

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=190543][COLOR=purple]Nih Betodaru[/COLOR][/url]

Quote: "Loki... I'm not going to discuss this further with you. The matter is closed, as far as I'm concerned."

Awee I accept your apology, friend! Though a hug would have been okay too!

This turn, I spoke little with my best friend but a lot with Ellyana.. I finally did it.. I told them, Pallas, and Elly, they know who I am.. or well- who I was. James..Jimmy, that's me. I'm not sure if Elly is upset with me, though she said I will forever be her Green-Buddy, I'm still quite nervous about her. All I want is for them to have peace and happiness, that's all. Pallas finally thanked me, It was shocking! I thought I was once again at the brink of death, I was honestly really scared, but I knew I wasn't a bandit anymore, so he wouldn't kill me.. It made me extremely happy to have shook that mans hand in a thank you, despite the words that slipped from Ellyana, I was just happy to see that she was alive, regardless if she liked me or not, she is a very strong woman.


Friendship, is important to me.. I once cried for a whole turn because I thought I was done for, going to lose my best friend.. but that wasn't the case, it was a misunderstanding, but boy, I could have caused some serious damage.. and I thank Viviyan for that, and for being around i general.

So much thinking to do, my head is starting to hear and make me sleep more, but I will get my actors, I will!

despite the fact of everything, I spoke with Lotus at the end of last turn, she's very sweet.. I want to thank her for being around, especially when needing someone to talk to.

I... am in a dilemma, but I will not write of it. It's rather confusing.

Also, my hair is dyed teal at the ends. YAY!!

That's about it!

Contemplating, plotting, and planning

A True Story

The last turn, no, the turn before the last, I ran... I ran and searched for Elenoire, and I wasn't going to have anyone with me, no, there was no need to have anyone with me. I had to do this on my own, not because Elenoire is a friend, but because it involved bandits. As soon as I heard the story, I knew bandits were involved, there couldn't have been any other.. Abduction, that's what their known for, and so, I moved on, leaving my sister's congratulations for leveling party and going to search for the fragile one. Valya had the doors blocked, but luckily Lavender was there, and so I asked her to use her portal to teleport me to Branishor, where I could think and plan better. Walker.. a very strong rogue, he wanted to help, but I wasn't going to allow it; I couldn't allow another to get hurt while I dealt with the bandits, No One knows them as good as I, and I was aware of this. But of course, he followed me anyway, through the portals we went, and toward the Gremlins camp I went to think. I fought through the gremlins to reach their attic, where I knew no one would be able to reach me. It was then I planned.. to Ethucan, because that's where they would be- but it wasn't the first stop. The bandits would know I would be heading there, so I had to make an abnormal turn, Killican. I somehow managed to lose Walker, he called me a fool, though he knew why I did what I had, however, on my journey, I bumped right into Nih. He was standing right on the roads of Caernival, it was as if he knew I was going to go there. "What are you doing?" He asked me, I almost hesitated to answer him, not really sure how he would take my behavior, and not really sure if Nih knew exactly what was going on with Elenoire. And so I told him; "I have a ferry to catch.. Elenoire's missing, Nih, and I have to find her. Bandits." When I said this, there was no need to finish, because Nih understood right away; "Well then what are we waiting for? Lets go." What was the wait? Why did I hesitate so much? It took me awhile, but then after awhile, I figured out why. I had to.. literally revert back to banditry, remembering what we they would have did, what trails we they would have left. It took awhile but I got it. I told Nih to make sure that I do the talking, and he didn't care what I did, as long as we found Elenoire.

When we made it to Killican, the place was so quiet, way too quiet from the norm, so I knew something fishy was up. I kept feeling like their were eyes on me.. I was ready, I wanted to slaughter every single bandit if I seen one, but none showed up.. it was until then, when I realized that they left us a note hidden the mug of a Pirate Ale on sale. So I ordered it. "Once lost, now found, Around and 'round you go, place a price and we'll sell" I can't hardly remember the words... they were something like that! I was highly upset, once I realized that they had us spinning in circles.. back in the Wastelands, that's where we had to go, and so Nih contacted Lavender and we portal'ed our way there, and that's where we bumped into Jobe. The two followed me into the wastelands, and made it to the Tainted Obelisk of Salvation, I knew for a fact that's where we would have met as a bandit, I knew that's where they could have been... but they was not. They sold Elenoire away, that poor soul, and we was too late. I knew this when I found a Mire Gem, and where could they have gotten that? They were playing with us.. torturing us with our own knowledge, somebody was watching.. they knew I would find the trail, but consistently left hints.. why? Who is playing these mind games? I sincerely hope it isn't Master Rai.. he was the bandit captain I knew, and if that was the case.. then he's haunting me. If he continues to play games, I will show him who changed, using my Warrior blade. So we went to the Hag, she always gives away Mire Gems.. and found nothing but a scared old ugly woman. I was disgusted, seeing that the trail ended there. Though Loki told me to kill her and get the information, but I couldn't.. because, somehow, I had a feeling that's exactly what the bandits wanted. They wanted to see if I could kill something to take on for the blame. They wanted to see if I was still that blood thirsty.. But what they didn't understand, was that I didn't do it because I wanted to, but because I HAD to. Nih was upset, and needed to spend time with the shadows, and that in itself was understandable... it truly was... and so, we're left with a burden in our hearts, waiting to hear more news about Eleneoire... but nothing yet, only marcs, patience is a virtue. I thought I was losing my mind.. so I stopped taking the tonic, now more becoming a bandit again, though I feel the need that I have to.. in order to help save Elen.

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=191014][COLOR=purple]Order Adjutant Viviyana[/COLOR][/url]

Quote: "Hey Loki, I've found out where I don't fit in, how do find where I do?"

VIVI's BACK!!! I'M SO HAPPY!!
Anyways, me and Vivi spoke a lot this turn, and I'm happy to have done just that. I didn't realize how much I missed her until toturn.
She asked me this question.. I remember asking this to myself actually, long ago.
Many do not know of my history, but for my friends who do know exactly what I'm talking about.. ugh... it killed me, the memories.. I swear it. I thought that I would have been dead, but I survived somehow.. I ran, and just kept running, climbed and just kept climbing, though I can't help it but to feel that soon, soon the bandits will haunt me again, and I will have to fight them. If they do, I'm ready for it. I'll take them all, just like that Warrior did, wiping out each and every one of them with my blade. But when Vivi asked me this, she made me remember the answer.. the reason why I'm so happy.

I told her; "Don't try to fit in, it's too much work, I like to live my life by going with the flow and continuing with what makes me happy."
Who care about fitting in, being that unique puzzle is what matters.

[URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=190160][COLOR=blue]Avedis[/COLOR][/URL], I confused him so, though not intentionally.. trust me, it really wasn't my intentions.

So Vivi came back and the weirdest thing happened... a funeral, for a.. outfit? Man oh man, wait till Harkyne hears about this! They called it, The Legend of Stormy Sunset,, at least this is what [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=41087][COLOR=red]Rea[/COLOR][/URL] called it. You guys, I'm not over exaggerating when I say, the funeral was literally for an outfit.

I am so happy Bebh is back. I've missed her so much, and now both Bebh and Vivi's back? My life is almost complete! Almost..

I spent a lot of time with Lotus this turn.. didn't realize how amazing she was. I can't wait to get to know her some more.

By far this turn has been the most embarrassing for me, OH NIH, WHAT TO DO?!
P.S: I know you're reading this..
P.S.S: I can see you from far away in the distance of shadows!!

Highlight of this entire page;
I * Viviyana's back!
II * The Legend of Stormy Sunset
III * Embarrassing turns.

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=82135][COLOR=purple]Lady Sehdae Ly[/COLOR][/URL]

Quote: "Inebriated? You're acting worse than Cenny when I snuck him the lemonkade's from the hall."

FRIENDS, If I ever forget, please remind me to never drink mead, ever again! I sort of just kept writing Sehdae, oh man, she probably hates me now. Though she was trying to help me a lot, she stopped me from dancing and also taking a canon ride which probably wouldn't end well. Thank you Sehdae!

Despite the fact that I drank mead, I actually had lots of fun last turn! Spoke with so many people, and the last turn before was actually funny as well.. Houtini Foofinnweson, odd fellow yet still rather intriguing. Soon, if everything goes accorded to my plan, I will be doing business with this man. If I ever see him again!

I waltzed last turn... I waltzed to nothing, but with someone, and it was fun! I hope to spend more time with that one.

I've been writing a lot recently, and remembering a lot. No more reliving my past, thank goodness! I've got so many plans, it's exciting! Just wait and see you all will enjoy it.

Me and Valya has discovered so much, which is also exciting, and my student Petiron has been training hard. I am pleased, very much so! Though Marron's concerned at how I've been passing out.. I've been doing that sense I can remember, it's nothing I can control really. I'm happy from all the support I've been receiving, thank you friends.


Shadows leads, light follows.

"I radiated a: Battlebringer`s Mark of Kane`s Fury" blessing..

Different for me... I wonder what that was all about?


I really miss Ellyana... can't wait to speak with her again. Get well soon Elly.

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=190543][COLOR=purple]Nih Betodaru[/COLOR][/url]

Quote: "Then Loki, you and I will always be friends. Your past is one of atrocity, but you overcame it. For that, I am proud of you."

Words cannot... They just can't I tried, but they CAN'T!
I can't say thank you, he tells me I don't have to because he already knows that I am thankful.
Nih... I'm your BIGGEST FAN best friend! He sees that.. what else can I say to him?
He broke me down, that WrinkledSuitDirtSharkNestHead-Pup..

Nothing even phased him, not even those words. I couldn't even write; Turn Two in my journal on the second turn. I've been... reliving my past. It's painful.. I remember every single thing, I haven't been so scared to relive the horrible times of banditry, I didn't even realize I had forgotten so much in the beginning. I refuse to go further into my history, only because it isn't for everyone to know. But it kills me, it really does. Nih even slapped me out of it. I don't know what I would do without Nih. Speaking of Nih, sense we were ALREADY on the "Topic Of Nih", I think I scared him!! I THINK I ACTUALLY SCARED HIM! Well- not like scare-scare but more like startled, and boy was it worth it. Every.Single.Time he comes out of nowhere to me saying my name; HOLY DIRT UNDER THE SHOES OF ZERIC'S! It's so scary unexpectedly - What would be a good word? And No, I wasn't scared; I wasn't scared at all. It Though it was hilarious how I did it, the conversation was short, it went something like;

I was tiptoeing my way to Nih, and then out of nowhere I shouted his name; "NIH!"
He doesn't jump.. he doesn't yelp.. he just simply looks at me with narrowed eyes and said; "No." That's it... no?
I fell over laughing so hard! I just knew I startled him! I had to.. and you wanna know what his response was?
The shark-Cleric, lifted his old cane and actually pointed it toward me, and repeated himself; "No"... At this exact moment, I felt like a dog. I felt like I did something wrong! But I know, I did nothing wrong, still, I apologized, a few times actually; I think. I know I scared him!!

"[URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=192728][COLOR=blue]Houtini Foofinnweson[/COLOR][/URL]" Now THIS was a very interesting adventurer. Our conversation.. was the most confusing! I welcomed him to Valorn.. and he says;
"Hello to you too! Who are you? Hou, really. Ha! That's me!" - So I said; "Well hello Hou!".
His response was; "Hou who? I'm who, that's Hou! Houtini is me! But you can call me Foofinnweson!" Confused.. right at this very moment, so I said; "So it's Foofinnweson?" I said.
"That's right, laddie! Foofinnweson!" Was his response - For one, he actually knew I was a guy; YES! So I say it's nice to meet you, and then introduce myself.
"Who? Ha! Houtini Foofinnweson is who, is who!" - Oh man.. what was this guy even saying anymore?!
I said; "Well it's nice to meet you!" And he responded; "It is? I mean, it is! Who, who, who are you, since you aren't Hou who?"
I introduced myself for the last time.. and his response was; "Loki, Loki, Pokey, Moki, Roki, Soki, oh what a fun name!" - WHAT? "Loki, Loki, Loki. Fun to say! And rhyme!"
Why are you DOING this Foofinswagon Foofinnweson? WHY? STAUP!!

All in all, this turn was interesting. I spoke to [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=7797][COLOR=teal]Doyle[/COLOR][/URL] a lot this turn, probably, the second longest conversation I've ever had with the stone, he's honestly a really funny guy! He told me about his past, so he was a farmer? I knew it! There was something about him that had that farmer-like vibe, though he had a very good life.

I had apologized to [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=173295][color=black]Kenji[/color][/URL] again.. he had congratulated me when I leveled to thirty-seven.. his words were; "It is no more.. but live in thankfulness that it was.. My hair will grow back in time." - Very strong, I respect this man. I hope that he can forgive me completely.
Kabolloi I also apologized too, she also accepted my apology, though told me to stay away for awhile, and so I agreed and simply walked away. If one wants their space, then so be it, I will not force someone to speak with me.

Valya is amazing, the most amazing sister anyone could ever have. I've so far told her everything about me, she's the best. And although we lived completely different lives, we are still alike in many ways. Da had very strong genes haha!

Lillya actually could relate to me, she said she was proud of me also, Thank you Lil.

Oh and Sehdae said; "Intriguing? I believe, Loki, you find everything intriguing. Loki the Intrigued" - Hilarious Ha! She's amazing.

And so, after hallucinating and reliving my past, I've decided to take a turn break from the tonic. No more until the next turn.
Thank you [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow97718.html][COLOR=green]Bebh[/COLOR][/URL].. [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow23924.html][COLOR=darkgreen]Marron[/COLOR][/URL]..

I will never forget my goal. I am a protector of the lands. I am Loki, the shadows know..

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=192468][COLOR=purple]Valya[/COLOR][/URL]

Quote: "What if we WERE related? You don't know anything about your family...."

Who am I? What am I?
Family.... What is that?
The only ones who've accepted me into theirs were the Bunny's. I love them.. my family.. but a sister? Do I actually have one? A real blood related sister?!

-

[url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=190543][COLOR=darkgreen]Nih[/COLOR][/url] - "Loki... If you begin to remember something that is painful, just stop taking the tonic. Okay? Otherwise, two drops in an ale, twice a turn, you'll be remembering everything"

Day One.. Two drops of that awkward brown liquid in my ale.. I'm scared, honestly.. but I want this.

[URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=191286][COLOR=teal]Achelle[/COLOR][/URL] - Be careful with memories Loki...we suppress things for a reason. Have my share of them.

Thank you 'Chelle, I will make sure I am careful. I will make sure that on this path to memory lane, that I proceed with caution. My head hurts.. it hurts so bad, I've been thinking way too much. But I have to.

[url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=185847][COLOR=blue]Lillya[/COLOR][/url]- The brain is very fickle at times Loki taking what memory it wants

Why does it hide the things that are most important? Or at least it was..? It just doesn't make sense. All I want is to figure out who I am.. Where did I come from? Previous to banditry, who was in my life?

Valya - Then you tell me what you remember, and I'll record it. You might not remember in order, you know....it might be bits here and there...

Thank you Valya.. I appreciate your support, I really do.

I have this odd feeling though.. it's in my gut.. and it feels like it's reaching into my insides and twisting it counter clockwise. What is it that the shadows are hiding from me..? Happiness?
No, Loki. That wouldn't make sense. If the shadows were hiding happiness, then would I not be happy now?
So then, what are you hiding from me..? SADNESS?
Am I to be in the dark forever more? Not unless the goal is to be there.. it's not like I have a problem with it. Though if I wish to truly be myself, I must Learn Myself.

Fire...
I did a mistake this turn, after brainstorming, I actually lit fireworks incorrectly inside of Dundee's Inn. What was I THINKING?! I burned Kabolloi, and AND Kenji, ruined the Inn. I wouldn't be surprised if Jeffrey's even upset with me. Regardless, I apologized to both, and told [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=191246][COLOR=red]Kairiel[/COLOR][/url] - The Fiery One; of my mistake.. she called me an Idiot.. Idiot? Suppose I'm in the art of Idiotry, after lighting something like that in a closed in area. I cleaned up my mess, but she was upset.. though I didn't quite understand, Zanaan seemed to have lit fire in the In before me, and it was perfect! But then I did, and made a mess.

Kairiel then hugged me, I suppose she seen how pitiful I looked. I must admit, I felt horrible. After the hug, she said that she'd have to teach me safety, and so she did! But.. I've ruined my hair. It's shorter now.. just as I ruined Kenji's. It hurt, and although it did, I still laughed. But not Kenji-Warrior, he was upset.

The Fiery One had me looking for her, I failed the first time.. mistaking the riddle for a regular question. HOW did I DO THAT?! I never mistake riddles! But I did.. and failed. I asked for a second chance, and that time I was right. I searched and found her successfully.

After I found her, she told me to ask any question, and so I did. I asked her; "How do you successfully light a firework?" And she explained to me in grand detail.. so I told her I would light my other, and I did.. and when I did, it burst perfectly! It.. was [COLOR=green]GREEN[/COLOR]! I was super happy.. I mean, beyond Happy. Afterwards, Kairiel demonstrated juggling fire, and then her most dangerous move; Fire-breathing.

She told me... that the next lesson is patience, though I thought that was the first, it became the next. Patience plays a big part with fire, and fire is possible to be someone's best friend.. soon it will be mine. For Fire casts many shadows, and shadows is what I've yearned, fire is what I've yearned.

I will become one with fire. I will become one with Patience.

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [COLOR=purple]Gibberish[/COLOR]

Quote: "nkjfhkdflfds"

Yes.. that's exactly what it looks like. Gibberish. And that's not even a person!


The last few turns.. I don't even know. I can't explain. Too much excitement. WHERE TO START?!

For one; Commander Hojo asks of my turns twice. I can't wait to get to know him some more! I'm excited to have new friends, all of the many. Each and every one of them are exciting. I'm just happy that I've been speaking with Achelle more.... she reads me like a book. I've never known someone to know me so well. It's kind of scary, but I like it. Was that creepy..? I'm thinking about scratching that.

Anyways: Lighting lanterns and watching them fly.. that was two turns ago. I will never forget that turn. I lit three, one for myself, another for Marron, and the last for Bebhinn.. I miss her.

Where has Bebh gone..? I've never felt so empty.. With her gone, it's made me realize how much attention I've paid to her, let alone everyone else. Favoritism is bad, it was not that.. however, I must have spoke to her more than any other. I remember the time when me and her both expressed ourselves to each other, not romantically, but just out of friendship.. we both had our doubts, but it worked out in the end and brought us closer. I wouldn't be surprised if she's gone and about, chasing after the stars. Perhaps finally seeing her family, just like Viviyana?

Ellyana approached me last turn, she asked if I seen her as a friend? Silly question coming from my Green Buddy. Why wouldn't I? She doesn't know how much I care about her and Ni. Pallas is a great man, I'm happy that she has him, and I respect in in general as a person. It brings me joy every time I see those two together. It makes me just want to squeal, as if I were watching a Play. I should write one based off of them two, and call it Pana and Ellas... You seen what I did there? - Teehee.

I just had the most awkwardest conversation with Avedis.. and if I'M calling it awkward, then YES IT'S EXTREMELY AWKWARD. Nothing's awkward to me.. nothing. But when it is.........

I approached the male with a simple Hi, and it started off exactly like that- though for some reason this man is always stuttering La.. LA? What in the dirt of Zeric's shoes is LA?!

Avedis said: "Hello, la--... Loki."
'La Loki', I suppose that could be a title? I just smiled at the male and asked him how was his turn, before simply asking mentioning fish, and so he said; "Aye - explains everything." - He sounded so dry and sarcastic.. was he?
I asked; Of course, COOKED FISH! Do you like fish?!" - So he says; "You make no sense, lad."
How was it that I made no sense?! I just want to pull my hair... I don't get it! So I responded;
"I do?" confusedly before saying; "Well do you like fish?" while stepping near!
So he responds; "I do like fish." while leaning back. I offered him fish!

And then no response. How awkward was that? HUH?

Sir Cody did the same thing. He first questioned me with Fish, and then said that he'd hope it's cooked. I offered, NO RESPONSE.

WHY WON'T ANYONE ACCEPT MY FISH? I WAS BEING SO KIND, AND I LOVE FISH. FINE, MY FISH!!!!

In other stories; I took the Crier's job last turn. He wasn't spreading news to well. Besides, everybody wants to know what the Queen said during the Audience. Those who are reading that are interested, contact me if you wish to know. I don't think I'll scream though, the Crier has all of that. My voice would scratch and I would need tea for turns. I completely dislike tea.. so much.

Nih is the best.
Achelle is awesome.
Valya is epic.
Marron is BEYOND WORDS.
Aryana is just cool.
Cody is SirCodyFirebladeAwesomeStuff.
Ellyana is sweetyEpicFunGreenBuddy.

KAIRIEL - Now that's someone to talk about. Thanks to her, I have a GREEN DULL CRYSTAL. I am the happiest person ever, I assure you. One can't explain, even I can't. She showed me around Miranda's temple and Stre-something, I don't know how to write it nor pronounce it. But the place as amazing.. I can't wait for more exciting adventures with Kai. Truly honored to have met such an entertaining yet intriguing friend. She's amazing!

If I write anymore, surely, I'll run out of paper. This pretty much sums up everything. Thank you for reading!

Highlight of this entire page;
I * Adventuring with Kairiel
II * Ellyana
III * Lanterns
IV * HOJO APPROACHING ME FIRST

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=192621][COLOR=purple]Petiron[/COLOR][/URL]

Quote: "What do I do with a gift kit from Ridder?"

You all are probably like.. "Loki, why is THAT the quote of the turn?" But this was... one of the best turns of my life. Why? Because I received the best hat in all of Valorn from my student. A HORNED ALE HAT, I AM THE ALE KING!!!! The new one anyways. Even Thias [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=5693]Xanthias[/URL] agree.
He said; "Ah, well then, hail to the king."[SIZE=-1] Teehee[/SIZE]. Also, I made my student an Official Warrior last turn.. perfect.

Why is it that I'm always subjected to.. not strange behavior, though there's always a turn with something so strange.
I spoke with her.. or whether she spoke with me. Apparently, she did not approve of my words. So now I'm at lost.. I lost a friend. This was heart breaking. I never thought that I would, but maybe she'll come back? Maybe..? My words were harsh My words seemed harsh, however they were not. They were the right words to say. My words was complete honesty. Some know how to accept, some don't, that's what happens.

I have been speaking with [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=178759][COLOR=blue]Cody[/COLOR][/URL] a lot more recently.. man he's so intimidating! Though, he's the best. I'm happy to be this close to my teacher, and will soon be even closer. The Gods have a plan for me, why else would they give me an ale hat with horns?

[URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=191103][COLOR=darkgreen]Cenny[/COLOR][/URL] and [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=192468][COLOR=teal]Valya[/COLOR][/URL] are the best... I'm happy to have them both in my life. Sometimes I feel that a small "Thank You" isn't enough for the many wonderful friends I have.

I have Cenny's journal!! Yay!!! NO I'M NOT TELLING YOU ANYTHING ABOUT IT.... mine.
Cenny actually allowed me to hug him more than once. I can't tell you all how content I am right now. Despite the sadness of this turn. I thank my friends the most.

You wanna know what else happened? I won the contest to Zanaan's attire event! Fweeeeee 5k PLAT!

Nih actually came when I asked him to. After pushing him a bit.. I have so much respect for him!

There are only a few I say I love to, and you all know who you are. Thank you.

Highlight of this entire page;
I * Horned Ale Hat.
II * Cenny, Valya & Cody
III * The Journal!!
IV * Attire Contest

[SIZE=-1]Can you see it..? Can you see me?[/SIZE]

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=191246][COLOR=purple]Kairiel Bosburn[/COLOR][/URL]

Quote: "Ah-huh. Wildfire. Different from demonfire, though. Wildfire leaves the maybe for something."

It took me awhile.. a long while. But when I finally understood that I was the medium; Me? Shadow no, why? Why are you putting me through this?

Normally I wouldn't dare question the tasks, normally I wouldn't dare second guess myself. I would just listen. When you tell me to go, I will Go. But I didn't.. I stopped. There was a pause. Why was there a pause? Could I be lost without the whispers? But how? I was doing so well before. Before I could hear your whispers out loud, I survived. Is it because I am the conflict? The conflict wasn't really others.. it twas myself. I was battling against me; My worst enemy.

I.. scared myself.. I felt so in rage, pure fire like none other. I felt I just had to do something. I HAVE TO.. but no. No Loki, if you did something, then you would cause more chaos; But isn't chaos good? Of course it tis. Chaos is balance. But wouldn't chaos be light.. not dark? Some often get it confused. I surely know that I am not. Light is a chaotic element, no one sleeps in bright light, everyone is calmer, and less chaotic in the dark. So no, the darkness wasn't confusing I, it twas me; My Light. Lo..Low.. I have to keep to myself, this is what I thought; that is what I did. And in that moment, all I could do is plot. Chaos tis all... Darkness tis all.. What was I saying? That isn't all. But my eyes defied me, I could not see anymore but that. I could see war.. bloodshed, so much bloodshed, though did it effect me? No. I wanted it. I craved it.. but that's not me. Every now and then I could hear Cody's words. He said to me; "Hey, I've heard a lot of good things about you. Whenever you need someone to talk to, come to me.. I'm proud of you, Loki.." - Did I answer him? No.. why hadn't I answered him? I couldn't. I wanted to but I felt like I couldn't speak, like I no longer had a voice. Suffocation.

I was told to stay out of his business.. I couldn't speak, though I wanted to... Suffocation. Why were you there.... Aryana...? Why didn't you just walk away? She said something to me.. I told her to stay away. I could hurt her, I could cause her pain. Tis only chaos.. tis-.. did she say I was apart of her family..?

He touched my shoulder.. and told me; "Whatever you do.. just don't allow it to change who you are.. I don't like to see you so... down? You're always happy. Don't ever change you." Sir Cody.. I'm sorry.. forgive me for not responding. I am still very apologetic.

Ary.. I'm sorry for acting like such a fool..
My friends worked it out in the end, and all they needed was a reminder.. I lashed out. I lashed.. I was about to face my death with the blade of my own best friend. I was ready for it. I wanted the terrors to stop, I wanted the torture to leave. Though regardless.. I refused to be the one to walk away from it. I rather be the one that bleeds while still facing it.


[SIZE=-2]-Scribbles-[/SIZE]

Everything's okay now... everything's okay.
I'm okay.. I don't want to be enraged no more. It scares me.
I've discovered a fear of mine. I can be a monster.
I am a Dark Warrior...
I am a protector..

The shadows consumed me.. the shadows vaporize me.. the shadows know what they're doing.

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [URL=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow192338.html][COLOR=green]Loki Jester[/COLOR][/URL]

Quote: "It would seem tis was the topic of the turn. History.~"

Nih Betodaru;
Foods; Plain Cat Blood and Grass; It tastes bland. Doesn't eat regular foods. He rather his own diet, it tingles his tongue.
Born and raised in Caernival and is completely a risk taker- sometimes..
Though dares and challenges he'll accept, if he knows he'll win.
Does not care for many, and would not carry a conversation if disinterested.
Wouldn't hold back honesty, though thinks carefully before making moves and decisions.
Was a Rogue, became a Cleric for wonderful reasons.
Completely competitive, when he wants to be.
Can be very stubborn - unexpected.
Zimerac.............

My best friend.
Thank you.

The shadows... My heart.

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=192557][COLOR=purple]Ashram[/COLOR][/url]

Quote: "In some regards, aye. The strength of self is a thing I would teach to all. The Gods have seen fit to gift me with a body suited for war, I would do them justice by using it to that purpose, and encouraging others to know the strengths gifted them."

He is a Cleric, but has the strength of a Warrior. Now that's admiring.. Then again, I'm a Warrior, with the qualities of a Rogue.

I've come to the realization, that I really have been slipping on this. I assure you, I will continue to write in you more Diary, I will not neglect you. However.. some of these thoughts.. some of the stories of my turns, I've been feeling like I should keep to myself. And that's completely alright!

I spoke with [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=191246][COLOR=teal]Kairiel[/COLOR][/url] the other turn, didn't know she knew how to dance, that was an interesting thing to find out! We spoke more about it.. Fire Dancing.. could you see me doing that? I think I can do it. I think I can eat fire.

"If you can't wait, Then I can promise I en't teaching. The first of learning such things is to learn patience. Respect the element you're wanting to dance with." - Kai said this. I've been taught by Cody and CSB.. Patience Is A Virtue.

The turn before the last.. I made a mistake. I hurt a new adventurer's feelings. How? Well simple- I caused mischief, though not intentionally; never intentionally. But, I spoke to my best friend about it, and he helped me. He asked;

"Do you know what is nice about wood when it is scratched?"
I said: "No, what is?"
Then he said: "You can repair it with a simple application of varnish, the same with people. Apologize, sincerely, and make amends for your actions and you'll win the man. If he refuses to forgive, then he isn't worthy of your time."

That does make sense.. thank you Nih. I actually sent her a brief apology, and it would seem as though she accepted it! HUZZAH!

[url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=119529][COLOR=red]Bibi[/COLOR][/url]... it felt SO good to see her! I'm happy she invited me to sit and drink with her, and while I was in the mist of training too. Then, she brought to my attention that she fishes. I did not know this! Come to find out, there's more to that fishing history. I can't wait to speak with her again. Though when she first whistled to me, I was shocked to have seen her without her helmet.. though, she quickly placed it back on her head. SO DANG FAST! I thought I was seeing things for a moment. She's... such a beauty. I can't wait to speak with her again.

In other news, Diary, I've learned that pushing people isn't always the best thing to do. When they say no, they really mean NO. I care too much, but I don't care. If you don't like what I'm doing, I will continue to do it because it defines ME, that's who I am. I will not change for no one, especially out of pity. I am LOKI; A Former Bandit, and VERY STRONG WARRIOR. My goal is to protect the lands and the Queen, and so I will train to be strong to do just that!

Highlight of this entire page;
I * A wild Bibi appeared!
II * Nih's Advice.
III * My Warrior Goal.
IV * AND FIRE DANCING!

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow62105.html][COLOR=purple]Aryana Moonsong[/COLOR][/url]

Quote: "I am proud of you, Loki."

Way too many things happened last turn.. it was.. mind blowing! But me and the rest of CSB finally came up with our event for the Frost Fest! Despite the short amount of time, it was done, and the prizes are amazing.

I spoke with my friend, Nih a lot this turn. But the only thing that really came to mind was when he was cooking up a storm! I am curious to see who wins, still. He said some pretty nice words to me.. though, he is my friend! I told him that I would give him a gift, and I did successfully.. dreams really do come true. I thank the shadows, and the gods.

"Have you considered the order?" Nih asked me while holding a strange note.
I replied with a; "Yes I have.. why?"
Then Nih said; "You'll be a perfect Protector, Loki"

Did I melt..? YES I MELTED. And then- it was almost spontaneous.

Aryana spoke to me later on that day, she said I reminded her of my sponsor; Cody Fireblade though I asked her why? And she said;

"You are both loyal, fun, and like him you give off an aura of being approachable. You are a friend to everyone". With a smile.
I felt.. speechless, though I thanked her, afterwards she sung to me, and so I've decided to share the song.


"May your turn end as it did begin, in the company of your friends and kin. May you always hear laughter every where you roam, that always leads you right back to your home

May your life always be filled with light, laughter and love as you wander the lands from the seas to the heavens above. May you always be happy and carefree, never to change and remain as you always shall be

May you always remember your friends and your family, finding comfort in both them and me"

Did I melt again? YES I DID.

During the cooking event, I seen Miranda-Goddess. She's just as I imagined she'd look like, though it was rather amusing watching her float around like that. And Ahh yes, lets not forget about THE ATTACK OF THE SOCKS! All I did was shouted; "Is that your best show?" To the snowmen, but I was not expecting that. Great Show!

Teehee~

QUOTE OF THE TURN: [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=192115][COLOR=purple]Allegra Kinsey[/COLOR][/url]

Quote: "You are certainly an odd sort..."

I know this Allegra, I've been told perhaps probably one thousand times. If even.. regardless? I get asked silly questions as well, such as; "Are you a Girl or Boy?" or "Do you want to be a Girl or Boy?" And if you all truly must know, I intend to be both.~

I've been asked many strange yet intriguing questions, it never fails! I love it! If you have been following up on this public diary of mine, I am sorry for not writing for awhile.. I've been focused on reading another, however, now that this is the last turn before I must return the other, I'll go back to writing.

He asked me something.. Nih asked me; To teach it for him sense he plans not to. Did I accept? OF COURSE I DID. I would do anything for my friend, even buy him a Scepter of Morning Light.. Which I plan to do. Words cannot explain how truly thankful I am to have such a friend in my life! It brings water to my eyes!

I haven't been training.. because well, I've been farming. And NOW I'm sick, so everything has slowed down dramatically. It's almost depressing.. but sense things have calmed, I actually learned that I can live without training.. that it's possible! Thank goodness. At first, I didn't think it twas!

Also, I've come to the conclusion that I have fallen in love. I'm in love with The Shrouded Bunnies Clan Guild.. and I'm happy to say it! I would marry it if I were able to. I'm happy to have family-like Guildmates, and to be surrounded by three special women in my life; [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow62105.html][COLOR=gray]Aryana[/COLOR][/url], [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow23924.html][COLOR=darkgreen]Marron[/COLOR][/url], and [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow97718.html][COLOR=purple]Bebhinn[/COLOR][/url].. I love them so.. and yes, I am aware that love is a powerful word.. I would do anything in my power to protect them.. I am aware that I have more than just those three in the Guild, but I swear tot he gods, I love them, the shadows know! Go on and ask!

I also have a lot of love for my friends as well, especially [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=190543][COLOR=green]Nih[/COLOR][/url], [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=94138][COLOR=blue]Gawain[/COLOR][/url], [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow192391.html][COLOR=red]Burendi[/COLOR][/url], [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow192304.html][COLOR=brown]Apliam[/COLOR][/url], [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/cshow191286.html][COLOR=violet]Achelle[/COLOR][/url], and [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=185847][COLOR=teal]Lillya[/COLOR][/url], and MORE. I thank you all!

I plan to make an IMPACT, and for those who cannot see it, Be Prepared for it. I WILL reach my goal, Lillya knows it. I will make my [url=http://www.darkgrimoire.com/showchar.php?char=178759][COLOR=green]Cody Fireblade[/COLOR][/url] and my Guild proud!

"Expect the unexpected.."