been missin 'im somethin fierce. I 'ope he be knowin i still be thinkin bout 'im. Turns be goin by slower and i be findin it 'ard to be civil ta people wi' 'im being asleep. Be awake a differen times be guessin. Just know i be lovin im no matt'r 'ow long we be 'part

It happen'd. I be bond'd, to Korrel. It was bein a beautiful ceremony. All in praise to th' shadows. It be beautiful. We be bondin in Fartown a' th' clearin' The stars be shinin so brite an i swear i coul' almos' be countin' em all. Korrel looked so dashin in 'is suit. And I be feelin like a shiny bauble inna toy shoppe. Gotta admit tho' the seamstress be ver' goo' a' finding thins that be bringin out me features.

Ne'er been so scared o' anythin 'fore. Be afraid o losin 'im or 'im not showin up. He 'ad to had th' same feelin's i be havin. Nih be doin a good job with th' ceremony. It be small' mainly be bein our guild fam'ly and Viviyana. Be bein nice seein 'er. She be givin me a lovely necklace. I be puttin it up aft' we get back from Euthican. Dun wanna lose it, it be bein too pretty t risk losin.

I be findin mesel' lookin a' 'im while he be sleepin. He lookin so peaceful. Dun wanna disturb 'im. he be watchin o'er me while I be sleepin, canno be any 'appier I dun be thinkin. i ne'er felt as wan'ed as I be feelin no' I be 'avin a fam'ly an' I 'ave ne'er fel' like thi' 'fore. Glad he be bein as stubborn as he be.

It be bein t'day...I be bondin' 'im. Won't be lying be feeling very nervous. I know I be bein ok' bu' still he be makin me be feelin like ne'er have b'fore. Its hard t' 'splain but inna way I be more than re'dy t' be bondin' 'im. I also be pullin my stubbornness ou' on 'im. He be takin me to Kili, an' he showed me 'round...

'Ad 'im take m' to the Tavern. Th' same dark spo' for 'im. I made 'im sit. An' I put a mug o' pirate ale in front o' 'im. Tol' 'im tha' the ale dinna make 'im a bad person...I tol' 'im it be okay t' drink, because he be havin some'ne t' be keepin him groun'ed. I be tellin 'im tha it be bein okay. Tha' his fear be what keep th' darkness away from 'fore.

As we drank our mugs. We spok' e'ry time and aft' I spen' more time wi' im an' tol' 'im that I be lovin 'im. An I do.

He be bein okay...I be takin care o' 'im...no one needs t be worryin over iffin he be okay or no'. I be 'ere and be willin t' learn wi' 'im...

I bes' be goin they be pokin me wi' needles trynna move me t' adjust my bondin dress...

Be missin' 'im...He woke a bit earlier, but I woke right as he be fallin asleep...feels like we been not talkin f'rever. gave me a basalt spear an a basalt knife...even leveled waitin on 'im today...hope he be wakin soon. This weird feelin is gettin ta me. I don' be thinkin' tha' it be somethin' I like feelin. I know he be okay...but just don' feel right when I be wake and he be sleep.

Talked with Rea gotta say he be a strange one. Be talkin bout feelin's and such nonsense. But does he be havin a reason ta lie? Told the man i be speakin' to Rea an' he figured I did. But he an' I talked bout lots b'fore I fell asleep on him. dinna be meanin ta. Feel kinda bad that we be missin each oth....

Guess I gotta be waitin til he be wakin up.

Met up with him again las' turn had a slight snowball fight. Viviyana gave me a snowball to smoosh on 'im so I did. Payback fer hitting me in the face with one. A gift followed by a rotten termite egg. Told him ta not crack it. By the time he realizes, he will be surrounded by a bunch a nasty ol' prezzies. Though I still want my zombie head back. It be my cuddlin' friend.

Explorin' is fun 'specially when its somethin' you don't do alone. Went with him through the underground river and he held tight to me to make sure I was okay. Wasn't expectin' everything that followed. We ended up in a town called Caernivale. 'fore we left he took me to a small room that had kittens in em. Cute lil things. It was nice. Then he said he had ta show me somethin else and we needed the cannon to get there.

BOOM! soon as I got fired out I blew up. Guess that was me sign that it be somethin' to try again soon. Waited on him to get back to me and from there we went to see Furfuz near the pier. Its like he knows all the pretty spots in Valorn. People kept interruptin' by walkin in where we were so we ended up in the cottage.

Little did he know i snagged a left handed dagger for him. A gift, I think. It was nice an' I figured he would like it. So i gave it to him. Never seen him smile like that 'fore. It was nice. Then he told me to wait for him at the cottage that he'd be right back. Took him a marc but I still waited on him. Came back with his own gift. A friendship ring, normally not one t' wear any jewelry, but it is shiney and I like it.

So now while he sleeps, I write, makes the time go by a bit faster. And keeps me rememberin' what I need to. He said he would show me every place in valorn he knew. I cant remember the whol' list, but it was a nice gesture. Means I will have someone to blame when I tick people off. 'parently his sister thought it funny tha' I like me zombie heads. guess she will learn I am crazy herself the hard way.

Iffin he doesn't see it he is blinder than the back side of a sea dweller. An' a stubborn one at tha' too! I know I was gettin hungry so been trying ta eat some of the mushroom soup...Been fairly good, jus gotta find somethin other than Ale for 'im to drink when we are together. Water has ta be gettin borin' for him.

Guess I am just ready to meet the rest of em' an' get it over with. I don't plan on changin, but I do plan on makin him think hes goin crazy. That be the fun part.

Been wanderin about the lands...Met some pretty interestin people recently. Guess not everyone here is a bumbling lump of meat. One of whom stands out to me. His gaze makes me feel a bit insecure, as if he can see in to my very soul. Seems like even if I try not to, I find myself hoping to catch him awake. No matter how much I want to continue on he is right. It does get lonely, but friends are for the weak of mind...right? They use you up and throw you away.

Typical...I just want to be left alone, yet at the same time I want him near. Damnable thing called emotions..Its like we clicked instantly. Strange feelings are eating away at me..Mainly my lack of understanding..I hate not understanding things. I hate people touching me and trying to help...I don't need help. I am very self sufficient. Ive done it on my own for so long I really don't know how to accept the help.

I want to succeed with out the blessings or enchantments. I like the dark, its peaceful there. I feel more at ease, and have already had an offer for sponsorship, yet I'm not sure how to respond to his offer. So i left him with a less than fresh zombie head plopped right in to his lap. Worm out the ear and all. Funny thing is, he didn't seem to mind...

Is he crazy too? Thats the only logical thing I can think of. I don't usually speak to anyone and honestly I am not sure why I am allowing my words to flow freely with certain people. I have already proved a point for not wanting help that I have gathered. People usually leave me to my peace. I didn't meet him until last eve, Zeric the God, gave me a gift...I still don't know how I managed to squeeze the contents of the box on to my wrist though. Took a lot of growling and gnawing before it got on there, not it just feels like a form of entrapment.

I prefer my hunting. Ah well i will ignore it while I train, I suppose I like the way it sparkles in the rifter's light. I find myself looking around hoping that everything gets better and people will still leave me alone as i grow stronger. I don't feel I will ever be ready to mentor anyone and certainly doubt I will be much of an influence on anyone. Not that I give a rats behind, I guess there are a mix of emotions most of which I really don't care if I feel again or not. I don't like the way they make me feel, I am just...Different...And I don't want people around me that will force their friendship on me or make me feel like I have to do something...

I wont..

I really wont! Don't assume you are a friend just because I am kind...sometimes...When the mood strikes...I really don't care how I make you feel or...How you think I feel...I feel...Like me...