Perhaps I am getting better. I finally slept completely soundly.. not just passed out and dreamless from exhaustion, but actual comfortable sleep! I haven't been able to do that for a year and a half... since the summer faire I lost myself. But this turn I feel, exhilarated! So light and free, it almost makes me dizzy. I honestly didn't think it was possible, but I think I might be falling in love again. Every time I wake I am excited for his company, I look forward to seeing him. He took the darkness away and brought back the light. It is wonderful feeling so giddy and happy.