So relieved Cody helped me find a way to be rid of the summerberry ale that was still in my pack, without wasting it. I suspect it to be the cause of of me losing being me... it can't be coincidence that the first year I try summerberry ale is the year I lose... everything... Can it? To risky now to test that. Someone else who is not so susceptible to it's effects can have it. I shall stick to lemonade and other non impairing drinks from now on. And perhaps it isn't, but not worth it to me to try again... not after everything. Truth be told.. I am now too scared to try it again, even the thought makes me want to vomit.