Woke feeling a little more rested then I have been, the nightmares still present but perhaps I am getting use to them, or as use to them as one can get anyway, surprised I haven't had to re-stuff Caspian yet. Life seems so lonely now, I know I have family, but since I, unintentionally, cut myself off from all my friends, and from my family it's hard to know who to talk to, or what to talk about. The only thing I still have confidence in now is my healing ability, and my conviction to help whenever I can. Sadly even my faith has been shaken lately, something I thought would never happen. But, not my faith in the gods, certainly never that... but my faith in myself. The questions of "Why did this happen?" "Who am I now?" "Will I ever be able to forgive myself for hurting and losing my best friend?" and others, constantly buzzing in my brain. When I first REALLY woke up, I hoped he would be able to help me, give me a strong arm to lean on while I regained myself again after being so lost for so long. But, seems my... not being there, hurt him far to much. Which, I understand, it hurt the REAL me too. I just hope one day, to find happiness again... and hopefully peaceful sleep!