Everything is so loud now. It's like the fog that trapped my mind dulled my senses and now I just want to put my hands over my ears with every noise. So hard to figure out a normal life when everything makes me jump now. Only time in my life I was ever this timid was when I had to hide from da during his drunken rages. I don't like feeling this, helpless. I hope it passes soon. And I wish the nightmares would cease but even my stuffed owl, Caspian, can't hold them at bay. Not sleeping well has caused me to make several errors in judgment lately. I wish... So many things, that I can't even put them to words now.