My goodness it has been awhile but I doubt I've changed much perhaps just have found myself in a more unique way. Fallfest has passed its was wonderful I had so much fun. Im looking forward to winters warming I need to come up with some warm outfits and finish Shadows sweater.

Its been a wonderful fallfest so far...only a few thing plague my mind. Somethings are clouded and some so clear. I love this season and all that it brings. The air is crisp and refreshing. The drinks warm makes one feel at home.

Ah what a refreshing change of pace for me. I am happy truly happy. Its almost like a shock to my system but Im satisfied with my life. A wonderful man by my side making me laugh is a thing of pure magic. Here is to a beautiful summerfaire!!!

*a few ink blots are at the corner of the page as some scrawled out words grace the page but they are unreadable *

I will never Truly understand how people work. I think I'm just one of those people who expect more from those I know. I want truth and wisdom but will I ever have those . I hope to pass along what I do know to young adventures . I have found that my friends are fewand far between and I enjoy getting into trouble with them. Well until next time journal *a few trails of ink dots the page *

Its funny how many rumors that are about me and yet no one tells me these tall tales. Id like to hear at least one so i can shake my head and walk away in disbelief. People who dont even know me knows these tales. Im part of a family but have never felt more alone. ....

What a strange set of turns I am going through. Im not sure what to think of them exactly. I feel fire and pain. I think I may be going mad......

Some change along with the wind where ever it takes them they run along no roots or conviction. Now is that simply how some folks are its written in their makeup. Can they change? Perhaps they dont even know they are like that but I see the change and say my peace only be ignored but I know the time will come where they run back to me with scathing eyes and i simply accept them and listen to what I already knew would happen.

Some never change. Once dishonorable always dishonorable. They are simply not to be trusted. Always go with my gut. How foolish of me to show mercy....never again...he will never be more then he is now.

I do not undstand how people can be so judgmental ugh some in the lands are the worse Ive ever encountered. To be so blinded by hate for no reason what so ever.

Ive had a few good turns lately. Then out of the blue Im asked to become an officer ... Im so shocked right now. I hope I do a good job.

Ive had a wonderful time with someone special...its been fun just being together no pressure. I can be myself the walls are coming down,