Things have been calm though hectic. I have been looking for red crystals for my spells, I still lack a couple. Brou has been such a support while I continue my search. During the times I am down there I have been practicing my speech. The other day I spoke without a stutter. It was not easy to do. I had to take a few deep breaths and concentrate, but I did it. The look on Brou's face, he was so surprised and shocked. But also so sweet. Telling me I do not have to change the stutter unless I wanted to. He was so proud of me trying. I then was talking to the guild and tried it again. They was all just as shocked as Brou was. I wish an old friend was here to be able to share this with. He would be overjoyed with how hard I am working. Maybe one day a chance will bring him back this way. For now my search for reds continues and life carries on.

A years time has past since we first had a date. I never imagined a simple joke would land us where we are today. You have helped me grow, helped me see, even shown me faith and love. All of which are the same gifts I will always give back to you and more. Thank you for taking me into your life and allowing me this joy we share. You will forever be in my heart. Just know I am always here for you in sleep and in wake my dearest Brou.

Well what an eventful week. My nerves held out and I made it though a glorious Bonding ceremony for Brou and I. It was wonderful our friends and guild families was there. The celebrated as much as we did. I could not be more happy.
Brou and I said our own words bonding us in our hearts months ago. The eve of the Bonding Brou asked if I felt any different. Sitting here and thinking on this I do. Having shared the joy we feel with others has just made me that much more blessed. He is truly good for me and me for him. Now maybe he will see that I am going no where and he can relax into a calm life with me.
On to another note, Fall Festival is here. This is my first. I am excited to see what will become of this event in the lands and all the celebrations of the season.

Seeing Broutac wake about sent my heart to my toes. He blinked a few times then opened those wonderful eyes of his. I can only imagine the look on my face seeing him wake. I had to speak to him and touch his face to make sure I wasn't dreaming. At one point I even pinched myself.
I have to be one of the happiest women in Valorn right now. He was shocked I was still there for him and that I still had his ring on. How could he doubt I wouldn't?
Since he has woke we have spent most of our time together catching up with events that happened while he slept. I gave him a necklace I had made of a lockpick and a staff of fire crossing. He seemed to enjoy the gift and even gave his cloak back to me to keep as a reminder he is always with me.
Tonight I got a note from Azure about Ants in the desert so I rushed in to help clear. After a short trip to the Life Monument Brou followed and helped with the Ants.
A picnic followed which gave us more time to talk. Another note from Azure arrived about a green guardian needing taken out. I didn't have my green yet so with Azure help and Brou near by I landed the final blow to it and claimed my green crystal.
A few paces away was the breath taking site of the waterfall. Brou and I stood there talking some more before saying our nightly good byes.
How I hate saying good night and leaving his side. How I fear he will not wake again. I am sure these fears will go away the more I see him awake and well.

I seem to slowly be growing stronger and training in some areas is a lot easier. I am looking forward to gaining more of my spells and sharing what I have learned. I help where I can and teach whom I can.
I miss Broutac and seem to be on edge at times. I know he will be back, but just the waiting seems to get to me. I found his cloak at the cabin belonging to our guild. There it was sitting on the rocking chair. So I decided to wear it when I need it. It is a reminder that he is always with me. I even had a special clasp made with a scrolled B on it. Maybe when he returns he will want the clasp. Until then I hope it close to me.
I have attended a few parties lately. Some I did not do so well at and others I managed to stay the whole time. I do have to give thanks to Azure, Gerse, Lowrenzo, Andy, Pallas, Trell and Poene. They seem to have taken it upon themselves to see me gain strength in attending situations where there are a lot of people.
Sehdae and I have been talking a lot and I must say I like her. She is fun and spontaneous and you never know what ideas she will toss out at you. She has a lot of spunk as well. Cally is always a joy to talk to and one i enjoy seeing in battle when I can.

I sit here saddened and confused. I miss my rogue deeply, but I miss my dear friend just as much. Broutac sleeps, and my friend is a busy man. Sitting here crying trying to figure out how know my rogue is ok and to tell my friend I want some time with him.
How do I tell him I still need him? I need that brother figure he is to me. Someone that understands me. But how can I ask for his time when he is so busy? How can I expect him to make time for me when he is working or with his love?
I am very restless lately and seem to be edgy at time. I try to not take it out on others, but with missing Broutac and my friend at the same time it is hard.
I am learning to trust others slowly, Sehdae has been talking to me some. I like her she is fun to be around. And Cally I always enjoy my talks with her.
On a bright note Summerfaire is in full swing. I showed up to the lemonade social, but only stayed a few moments. I also went to the Garden party with the support of Low and Azure. I did retreat to the beach after a bit, it was just to much. Azure was nice to come and check on me. Though me and Azure rushed back into the garden at word of birds attacking.
I hope in time my unease with crowds will fade.
I love you my dear Broutac, please wake soon. And my dear brother figure Gerse, I love you too.

Sitting on the beach this morning, I am still in shock. Broutac did it again, he shocked me. Yesterday morning he asked if we could speak later that day. That he had something he wanted to speak to me about. After fidgeting all day, having a confrontation with Kade and finally seeing Brou awaken it was time for his talk.
We met at the cabin and after a short period of talking he asked. Will you be mine forever? Needless to say the man made my day. We did our bonding between us. I am still not that comfortable with crowds so it is best this way.
My heart sings and I can not seem to come down from the cloud I seem to be drifting on.
Now to talk to Gerse and Elly and let them know. They will understand my fear and why no big ceremony, and I am sure news will filter to the others in the lands as time passes.
With that said I just know I have to be one of the happiest women in Valorn right now.

I have had a pleasant day today. I was able to spend time talking with Broutac. It is amazing how fast the marcs go by while I am talking with him. I have even found myself stuttering less and less around him. And for that matter less and less over all. I seem to be more confident now as I learn my profession and I adjust to the the lands of Trinald.
This evening I was able to spend a few marcs speaking with my sponsor Andy. It is nice to catch up with him. He is always excited to see me and check on my progress of my spells. Sadly I had to say no new spells. The Red Guardians are just not being nice to be and drop red glowies.

After a few marcs of training and a few red guardians with no luck of finding a red crystal. I finally decided to do some much needed shopping and bought my next levels gear and stowed it in my vault.
Sitting at the Nexus I wrote a small poem while looking down at the lands.

As my thoughts fall into place
I stare down at the lands
I often forget to slow my pace
and extend my hands.

My thought wounder to one
missing him and hoping he is well
looking forward to the fun
and the stories we tell.

Know that you are in my thoughts
and soon we will have our time
what our hearts have sought
will come in with a chime.


I had a wonderful time at the picnic last night it was to reconnect.

Hearing of a celebration at the Dundee inn for Jeffery having the inn for TEN years. There was talk of cake and flags. After fighting my internal battle, I bravely stuck my head into the inn. Just a couple people where there so I ventured in. The cake was wonderful. Not sure who the baker was but it was great. After talking for a while I ventured out and took a walk. Yes Enchantresses do that too.
My mind was wondering as aimlessly as i was walking around. Thinking of how much I had grown internally since arriving. No longer do I hide at the site of a tall male. Nor at the site of a demon. I try to talk to those I do not know more often. My stutter is ever present, but at times when comfortable there are times it softens a lot.
I have even been spending time with a very special man. He is so sweet and charming. The last few days we have not been able to see each other but I am sure we will soon. I miss him.