Wednesday, 28 June 2017
I can't believe I was actually able to find this thing hidin in me pack. It seems like it's been ages since I've pulled this thing out, and well, I guess it has been. I ain't realized til now how long it's been since I had to leave unexpectedly. The lands seem quiet now that ol Balthy's gone, it's almost scary, waitin for the other shoe to drop.
I ain't been able to really talk to anyone from the guild, I'm beginnin to think that there's no one left. I did receive a message from someone and well, lets just see if'in they find me to talk.
I'm lookin forward to sinkin me daggers into somethin, don't know what yet, but I'm sure I can find somethin real soon, seein how trouble seems to find me no matter where I go.
Friday, 05 August 2016
It's been a rather interestin turn. It started out like any other, me farmin away in the Dead Zone, but then I found me self in the Athletic Grounds bein talked into a game that the Order had come up with. I can't say when I've laughed so hard before but man, am I tired now. It seemed that game went on forever. I'm so tired right now I can barely see straight. It would seem a lot got to see the side of me I like to try to hide. Ya know that side when I just start blubberin anythin that pops into me head and I make a complete fool of me self? Yeah, that's the one. Ah well, I figured it wouldn't be long before that happened, considerin I vowed to me self when I came back not to put on that mask any longer. I can say it's rather liberatin. I'ma gonna have to remember that and try to come out of me shell more but not be so aggravatin. I think I was gettin on me own nerves there after a while. Me sis always told me I could be that way, but didn't realize it til now how bad I was. I'll have to finally admit she was right for once, which won't go over too good. She'll never let me live that down.
I can say this, I'm happy I actually came in last in that dang game. It was so much fun and I couldn't be happier than havin a great time with some great friends and meetin some new peoples. I can say that I'm happy that I stuck it out, even with me bein a fool and all.
On another note, I've gots some figurin out to do about somethin. When I spoke to a couple people, they understood where I was comin from, but now I have to convince me self of it.
Thursday, 04 August 2016
It feels good to be back where I belong. Now if'in I could just get me feet back under me and me bearin's straight, I'll be doin even better. I am very happy to see that he did return long enough to turn leadership of the guild over to Lillya. I'm sure she is doin a fine job since we've all been away. Now I've just gotta figure out what it is I should do with me self. I'm just thankful that the last soul searchin I did seems to have done me some good and I've never felt more like me old self than I have in a very long time. Now to get out there and see whom I can torment.
Saturday, 09 May 2015
I know at this point in my life, it was the right thing to do, but that don't make it any easier. I have to get me mind straight and I trust him to handle things with the guild while I do so. I know he ain't gonna neglect it. If he does, I'll just have to find him and aggravate him til he gets back on track. Now if I can make him see that I deserve everythin I got. Maybe one of these turns he'll actually believe me.
Monday, 04 May 2015
I should really come with some type of warnin label or somethin to that effect. If'in ya want to get hurt in some type of way, speak to me for a split marc, I'm sure somethin will come out of me mouth that will either hurt ya or really make ya mad. Funny thin is, I don't mean to do it, it just comes out of me mouth that way. Ya would think I would learn after so long in these lands to keep me dang mouth shut and not talk to anyone, especially when I'm feelin the way I have been the past few turns. I don't think I will ever get the hang of this mess.
Saturday, 02 May 2015
With so much goin through me head, I ain't sure what I should be doin. I know it's all me fault, no matter what anyone says. It's always been hard for me to give the way I should to those that I love. I don't know if'in it's cause I'm terrified of gettin hurt again or what it could be, but I do know I ain't been happy, truly happy in a while. It's time to make some changes. As soon as I see someone wake, I'll do what I need to do and then go somewhere to find who I use to be. I'm tired of it all, of everythin.
Friday, 06 February 2015
It's takin everythin I got to keep remindin meself that it ain't like before, things will get better, it's only this time of the year. I know I ain't been around as much as I should be and I am tryin to change that but it's hard to do. I've even found myself standin around Dundee Square for a change of scenery. I've really gotta find me groove again before I lose me mind here, but ain't sure how to go about doin that.
Friday, 23 January 2015
So I've come to a conclusion, it's time for me to get out of that dang Dead Zone. It's gonna be hard for me to stand there and do nothin, but I really gotta learn that all that farmin ain't good for me.
I really do need to take some time to figure out what to do with that new room in the guild hall. It's just sittin there, bare. A few have given me some good ideas, I just need to start the buildin process and then make them finish it off. Ahh well, one step at a time.
Monday, 05 January 2015
Yeah, well, whatever. I'm really beginnin to think that it has to be this time of the year for everyone to feel as I do right now. I can barely hold me eyes open and when I do hold em open, I feel the call of slumbers rest pullin me back under far too quickly. Hopefully soon I can make me self stop doin this so much.
Durin one of my short stints of bein awake I received word that the beams across that dang door were destroyed. I ain't been back to that room since hearin that. Almost too scared to see what will happen if'in I do. Maybe I'll work up the nerve to do so soon, if'in I can stay awake long enough to do so, that is.
Tuesday, 23 December 2014
I've been back for a bit now. It looks like he didn't have the answers that he said he would have. It turns out that all he wanted was to see how we were doin and if'in we looked anythin like him or our mothers. He was tryin to get out of some debts and he thought by makin one of us bond the guy he owed that would take care of it. Did he really think that would work on one of our father's children? Did he think that father didn't teach us anythin before he passed on? Sure she doesn't have any memories of him or her mother, but I do and I remember all the lessons he taught me and tried to pass em down to her.
After realizin what he was really up to, we both left. We didn't return to our true home right off though. I felt it best to show her where she was born and lived for the first few years of her life.
Now to just meet up with a few people to take care of business and things will be back to normal, I hope.