Have you ever imagined what it's like being a tailor? You can make all sorts of dresses, without having to buy them, make them to the design right inside your head, and not worry about finding the right one as you push through a bazaar. Well, yes, I'm talking to a book. I've finally cracked.

It began with the OSW ball. Valina was handing out leaflets, and I suddenly decided that I wanted to participate in the event. I wanted to make a really grand dress and, don't laugh, look as good as Ellyana Lilli. So I marched to Heralda and bought some raw spider silk, marched to Branishor and bought some more, then went to Garehk and told him I want him to tell me how to make a dress!

So I gave him all the silk I'd bought and he told me to come up with a design while he made it into silkspun. He told me he'd need a lot more silk, though, so I'm going to get some more once I can. I was distracted by a raid in Caer Laleldan and then decided to rest, so I haven't gotten back to him yet. I have to come up with a design and make the dress all before the ball! Not to mention dying it. Silver's not bad, but it's really dull at the moment. I have such a lot of work in front of me!

All this is helping to distract me from thoughts about Sephy. He hasn't sent me an owl since I returned, even though I sent him an appleblossom to tell him I was around. I'm really scared that he went back to Crontia, but now I don't want to leave Valorn and I definitely don't want to go back to that horrid place. So what do I do? Pray to the gods that he's still in the lands? I think that's it...that's all I can do...

Despite all that, I think things are alright between me and Skye again. I'm not sure, though. It still feels awkward between us. I'm hoping it'll be alright. And...and if Sephy doesn't respond to the second owl I sent him, I'm dragging sis to the ball with me, instead of him. To chase the pain away. Because I don't want to feel pain anymore. It's too over-rated.