Time for a new plan of action. This one has already gotten old and tedious. In light of this I have begun an experiment of sorts, one that I feel is the only way I can move forward. I have to stop staring behind me and start looking around me. There is more to life than this and it is not going to come to me while I'm sat in these caves studying my boots! A little more trusting, a little less longing. A little more what I used to be and a little less what I have become. It cannot be that hard.