Wednesday, 10 February 2016
Sometimes life has a way of bringing out the things we most fear and when you give into the fear, doors open to all sorts of things you never expected. Not all of them bad but it's still a scary feeling.
Sometimes it hurts like crazy to get up and be normal - or at least act normal. Everything hurts sometimes - inside and on the outside - but eventually I have to suck it up and get myself up and about. Fear can be the most destructive thing in a persons life if they chose to give into it.
But despite all that and what's going on inside my head I really need to get out and about. Pallas worried for me, I know. Sometimes I think he would be better off without me in his life. He would scold me for saying this sort of thing, so I won't but writing it down makes me feel better. I love that rogue. We still haven't gotten the chance to go ice skating yet and we both really want to - even if that mostly means me falling. It will be interesting for sure. I don't fall right away. There are lots of weird noises and arm flailing before the falling part but we always have fun together and that's what matters. I just need to motivate myself somehow and get myself out of this funk I have been in.
I don't know why Pallas sticks around and is by my side as much as he can be through these times, but I'm sure grateful he does.
Actually I do know why.
.:*Ellyana Lilli the Sylvan*:.
Age: Around 30 Autumns
Height: 5'1
Guild: Twilight Serenity
Profession: Cleric
Where-a-bouts: Flitting about like a leaf riding the wind...
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Ellyana and Pallas - Seaside Serenity
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Ellyana and Pallas - Tomb Trouble
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.:*Random Pondering*:.
'Whom shall I love when the moon is arisen. Gone is my lord and the grave is his prison. What shall I say when my lord comes a calling. What shall I say when he knocks on my door. What shall I say when his feet enter softly. Leaving the marks of his grave on my floor...'
.:*Figments of Mentality*:.
'... I don't know who he is. In my dreams he does exist. His passion is a kiss ... and I can not resist.'
'I have a complicated relationship with zombies. They're dangerous, but I love their swagger.'
If I were a zombie, I'd never eat your brain. I'd just want your heart, yeah I'd want your heart, I'd just want your heart...
"If a zombie bites you, you turn into a zombie. However, if a mummy bites you, all you turn into is some schmo with a mummy bite..."
.:*Glints at the Storm*:.
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